my answer: holding on is harder. letting go at least gives it finality. holding only breeds and broods and jades people....
today turned out to be a good day. started out with the evil that is the unenjoyment office....grr! grr!
what turned my day around was...
good company, good conversation(CCR FOREVEH!), and the love of a little girl that love love loves her care bears.
yes. i broke down and bought her ANOTHER one. i think we're up to 20 or 21 of the care bears and care bear cousins. but if that makes my kid's day, dammit, that's what happens.
i have to go to my parents house to housesit for 2 weeks, trying to figure out what i'm gonna do with my pets. i don't want to leave the rats, they can die from broken hearts, literally- some shit i CAN'T make up- and with sam being back and my middle son's anxiety attacks, and the youngest's penchant for my plants or tearing up furniture if i'm gone more than a few days....
and no one but me cleans the box, or gives them food and water...but if i take them, the kitten, and oh god if i took the kitten with me, the roomate would flip, but i guess i could just drive up here every other day, yeah, be stuck in a car with "are we there yet" for 6 hours 3 times a week...that's like 18 hours of "i gotta pee! i want mcdonalds! mom, i wanna listen to country! why's the guy singing about a butt? why isn't he singing?? why's he talking so fast? who's mommy is he talking about? when he's done rapping, who's the present he rapped for? does it got a bow? mom, can i drive your car til i'm older? mom, can i go to burger king? i want cheeseburgerfriesandbrownsoda!!!(x 150 times)"
i have til sunday...i don't want to cloud my brain with it right now. i know, i'll go watch TV and cloud it with something else.
today turned out to be a good day. started out with the evil that is the unenjoyment office....grr! grr!
what turned my day around was...
good company, good conversation(CCR FOREVEH!), and the love of a little girl that love love loves her care bears.
yes. i broke down and bought her ANOTHER one. i think we're up to 20 or 21 of the care bears and care bear cousins. but if that makes my kid's day, dammit, that's what happens.
i have to go to my parents house to housesit for 2 weeks, trying to figure out what i'm gonna do with my pets. i don't want to leave the rats, they can die from broken hearts, literally- some shit i CAN'T make up- and with sam being back and my middle son's anxiety attacks, and the youngest's penchant for my plants or tearing up furniture if i'm gone more than a few days....
and no one but me cleans the box, or gives them food and water...but if i take them, the kitten, and oh god if i took the kitten with me, the roomate would flip, but i guess i could just drive up here every other day, yeah, be stuck in a car with "are we there yet" for 6 hours 3 times a week...that's like 18 hours of "i gotta pee! i want mcdonalds! mom, i wanna listen to country! why's the guy singing about a butt? why isn't he singing?? why's he talking so fast? who's mommy is he talking about? when he's done rapping, who's the present he rapped for? does it got a bow? mom, can i drive your car til i'm older? mom, can i go to burger king? i want cheeseburgerfriesandbrownsoda!!!(x 150 times)"
i have til sunday...i don't want to cloud my brain with it right now. i know, i'll go watch TV and cloud it with something else.
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akirali:
Sorry, I wish i had some advice for what to do with the house sitting situation, but I dont. I suck. Whatever you decide, good luck 
ox45:
She knows, but I'm the one with the hold-ups. If it weren't for my weirdness, we'd probably be together still, but I still miss her constantly. I think it's just my stupid hang-ups.