samling

i got a new baby today!! a little female blackhooded rat. she's pretty young, and i haven't named her yet. my daughter is most elated that mommy has another critter she can pet. or drive crazy. or both.

i'm feeling so indifferent about my job situation. they're supposed to call me, and probably they'll say, come back to work saturday, we want to fire you, but we'd rather scare you into submission. well, guess what? it isn't working. i'm not afriad of these people, in my eyes i've done nothing wrong but not run on their numbers. i help my customers. they are glad to talk to me. they tell my supervisor i whould have their job. but they're gonna have to fire me, i'm not going to quit unless i have something lined up.

so tomorrow, i go job hunting. i'll look locally, semi-locally. i'll drive to portland or seattle if i have to, but i want something that pays enough to offset the gas cost. i will succeed.

because my life isn't about money or fame, it isn't about numbers or hoops i jump through. i have survived worse than this. this, the whole job bullshit, is just a drop in the bucket compared to the big picture.

i also have a client tomorrow. i miss doing my sidework. i'll be seeing her tomorrow in between looking for a job. she called me tonight, so tomorrow i'll be having lunch with one of my favorite clients, and hopefully make sense of a few situtations. i just wish i could get more clients that want to know more meaningful things than who they're going to marry. que lastima!