7 March 06
This is one of those moments when you look at your life and tell yourself to step up to the plate, right? Sure, it should be, but something doesnt feel quite right. Including my unusual lack of sleep, things have been weird.
I almost feel like little orphan Annie here. Separated from everything I know - my friends, my battles, structure, discipline, my family, and mostly myself - except for my computer and my cell phone, I feel like I cant be all that I can be. I try tremendously, but no matter how much effort I put in, Im looked down upon - or at least it feels that way. There are too many people to impress here, and I am just the lowly PFC amongst a company full of officers. Even the ROTC guys get more respect than I do here. I am doing everything I can to show people I am an expert and a professional. Too bad most of them arent even Army personnel, never heard of the Warrior Ethos. Im a soldier, if not more of a soldier than any one person in my company. If there was something I could do about it now, I would, but I know things will work out for me, and I know that my time will come to show them what Im made of.
Im one of those people who, when given bad leadership and direction, takes control of the situation to make it better for myself and everyone around me. Before, I could do this with no problems whatsoever, but lately its been difficult. It seems like those who have more experience than me have less common sense than me. I have to fight with these people someday, and I feel like they are setting me up for failure - or worse. They do nothing but complain, and I feel like they are all weak in character. Their lack of competency aggravates me as well as frightens me. The only people I feel I can talk to about it cant do anything about it. You know one of the many Army mottos - Suck it up and drive on, soldier.
Easier said than done. I know Im not always right, but if things are run this badly here, I think its safe to guess it might run the same OCONUS. There is an extreme lack of communication, partly because there is a slight lack of chain of command. There is a lack of motivation, morale, and soldier-ism just the same, and things arent that bad here. Sometimes I feel this Army would be better off run by Privates. The only thing I can do to help myself get rid of these feelings is write them down right here. Suck it up, and drive on, Soldier.
This is one of those moments when you look at your life and tell yourself to step up to the plate, right? Sure, it should be, but something doesnt feel quite right. Including my unusual lack of sleep, things have been weird.
I almost feel like little orphan Annie here. Separated from everything I know - my friends, my battles, structure, discipline, my family, and mostly myself - except for my computer and my cell phone, I feel like I cant be all that I can be. I try tremendously, but no matter how much effort I put in, Im looked down upon - or at least it feels that way. There are too many people to impress here, and I am just the lowly PFC amongst a company full of officers. Even the ROTC guys get more respect than I do here. I am doing everything I can to show people I am an expert and a professional. Too bad most of them arent even Army personnel, never heard of the Warrior Ethos. Im a soldier, if not more of a soldier than any one person in my company. If there was something I could do about it now, I would, but I know things will work out for me, and I know that my time will come to show them what Im made of.
Im one of those people who, when given bad leadership and direction, takes control of the situation to make it better for myself and everyone around me. Before, I could do this with no problems whatsoever, but lately its been difficult. It seems like those who have more experience than me have less common sense than me. I have to fight with these people someday, and I feel like they are setting me up for failure - or worse. They do nothing but complain, and I feel like they are all weak in character. Their lack of competency aggravates me as well as frightens me. The only people I feel I can talk to about it cant do anything about it. You know one of the many Army mottos - Suck it up and drive on, soldier.
Easier said than done. I know Im not always right, but if things are run this badly here, I think its safe to guess it might run the same OCONUS. There is an extreme lack of communication, partly because there is a slight lack of chain of command. There is a lack of motivation, morale, and soldier-ism just the same, and things arent that bad here. Sometimes I feel this Army would be better off run by Privates. The only thing I can do to help myself get rid of these feelings is write them down right here. Suck it up, and drive on, Soldier.
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polverso:
If it makes you feel any better your not the only one who has to deal with mangament that can't find its own ass with both hands. Of course in your situation the possible consequences are much more dire 
emmanouil:
Be strong and fight against what makes you unhappy. Easier said than done. I have to agree on that. 