samichi

I had Rocky Horror Auditions today..
I did so fucking horrid.. I sang "The worst thing I could do" from Grease. One of my high notes sucked. On top of that, we did some reads, too. I was so fucking nervous that I could barely even read what was on the fucking script.. On top of that, The cast from the last show was there too. I hardly talked much to anyone because of how nervous I was. I hadn't seen a lot of them since the last show we had TWO YEARS ago. Christopher Joel isn't the music director this time. That made me even more nervous. PLUS there were so many good fucking reads. I had to be the worst out of the entire group, dammit. I wish I had done more than that one show in the past two years.

Don't get me wrong.. I've been wanting to do some other acting.. but I either could never find where auditions were, or I would procrastinate and just not go to whatever audition. I really really want to be in the play again this year.

We're supposed to meet back at the theatre at two tomorrow for dance auditions. We're probably going to sing songs from the show, also.. I'm still nervous as fuck. I might actually be the only one from the last cast to not be recasted. That would suck fucking balls.

I really miss Seth. I almost want to call him and ask if he wants to come with me to these auditions tomorrow. I'd probably even feel more comfortable.