samara_akasha

Well i haven't updated in a loooong looong time.. i wasn't in very good mood to write all my catrastophic life since december ..

January and February have been 2 of my worst months in all my life i was in a very deep, awful and worrying depression, do you remember about my boyfriend thing? well that's the reason .. he told me that i should give him some time .. 'cuz he had to think some things but he "didn't want" to break up .. but i was really really sad and very very depress, i never stop eating .. and those days my appetite disappeared completly .. i had principles of cough and flu .. and with the depression and with the no eating thing .. i got worst .. veeery .. then my cough and flu converted into a chronic bronchitis, i lost weight, i was very sick i looked very awful, my parents were so worried about me .. and me with all those feelings .. i can't believe it still .. i started to eat again 2 weeks later .. but things with my ex didn't went well .. those days .. every day were hell .. i didn't go to school for a week (for the bronchitis thing .. ) my ex .. changed a fuckin' lot .. i still haven't a fuckin' idea of what could happened to him .. he isn't the guy i used to know .. the one i used to love so deeply .. ironically we complied 10 months in San Valentine's day .. i imagined that day sooo different he even't call me .. i told him a friday that i want to talk to him that weekend .. exactly : sunday he told me ooh yeah i'll go to your home .. he didn't came, i call him aaaargh a lot of lies it passed monday, tuesday (valentine's day ) i wanted to talked to him 'cuz i thought in a limit day 'cuz i couldnt be like that .. no .. it was a lot to me .. and for my health too and i didn't want to pass Valentine's day in expectation .. i called him that day .. he told me that he would go next day .. i knew that he didn't want to go on .. i cried a fuckin' lot and the next day .. he broke up with me .. he's such a bastard all the things he said to me .. that he wanted to marry me , have kids with me .. "forever" .. bla bla all was shit .. aaargh so many things now he's with a slut that i hate.. i think that he's with that whore long time ago .. since we were a couple .. i'm not sure but once i felt that .. aaaaaaaargh it makes me aaaaargh so much frustration .. you can't imagine how much .. i'm better now .. i've to .. 'cuz i had another illnes .. after i knew about that whore .. and another stuff (and a lot) after all the stress, exams, my parents out of town, my grand pa's death those days .. all that .. my body can't resist it .. i ended in the hospital with an intravenous injection for my chronic gastritis .. it was veeeery painful .. 'cuz it was like a explosion of that .. if i haven't gone ... x_X probably i wouldn't be here .. very , very bad times .. the same with my band for the same thing 'cuz that stupid it's a guitarrist there .. so you can imagina how difficult it is .. we have to talk .. 'cuz there's a show in April 8th that's very important .. ah there's so much stuff .. i'll tell u later .. ir was enough ..

I can't up my pics where i'm singing!!! but there's others .. i pierced my lip!!



My SG blouse arrived in january or february i don't remember .. aaaaaaaaah i looveee it what do u think?






And here's a pic from yesterday .. awful resolution .. you now cellphones



Friday .. oh it's my birthday .. time is running out (like muse's song ) so fast .. Hope that i could be happy and i could have a lof of fun (altough is difficult in this fuckin' shitty town )

Thanks for all your comments!!