samanthakayne

'grab a drink and chug-a-lug,
have some sex and take some drugs,
aw-right!'

SO much to tell you all... let's see if i can't get the business out of the way for folks who don't want to sit through the whole long-winded journal entry - which, trust, this one promises to be.

SGCO memberships that are pending - sorry for the delay, maybe i'll be able to get to that today during the football game. i'll try, at least. thank you all for being so incredibly patient with me.

SGCO Halloween - 23 October at Cafe Netherworld featuring the Crispy Family Carnival and prob some live music, too. Iron's putting together some flyers that hopefully we'll be able to email to you folks by tomorrow (Monday) to start distributing. TraumaHound is the most wonderful thing that could've happened to SGCO, and all members should buy her a drink or something that night, k?

now, for the fun stuff... damn, what a week!!! thurs night iron and i went up to my folks' place. he'd found this welding program he was interested in, so my step-dad hauls him out to the garage and gets him welding shit then and there, to see what he thinks of it... damn shame they don't get along, huh? they're so cute together it's kinda scary. i love it. sent him home around nine, and a friend picked me up on the way to boulder so we could catch the Marillion show at the Fox. see, the thing is, i only know something like 5, maybe 7, marillion songs. and they're all old, for the most part. this friend is a huge fan, but only ever played the old stuff for me. still, a damn good show, actually. very artsy and prog-rock. funny, 'cause i usually go to shows for the energy, so it was interesting/odd to be at a concert where quality of sound was more important than energy of band... very different, but surprisingly good.

friday night, though. hot damn, children, hot damn!!! motherfuckin' supersuckers big show at the bluebird. i am such a lucky lucky girl. we grab some grub (best grilled cheese i've had in this town, whaddayaknow?) at the breakfast king ((first time we'd been there for something besides breakfast)). got to the club 8:30ish, just in time to run into sKoTt in line. well, that makes it easier, don't have to find him when we get inside. grab a couple of drinks, head up front to stake out my spot. yeah, i'm kind of a geek when it comes to the 'suckers, but i got to see everything, so i'm not sweatin' it... stood around talkin' shit with iron and sKoTt, waiting for things to get started. see the friend of the ex heading my way, notice me, and make a quick u-turn. geez, guess who was probably right behind him?

let's see - started with a couple of songs just from eddie before the band joined in. 1hr+ country set that was damn fine. damn fine, i say. then another couple just from eddie before the boys come out for the rock set. a good hour and a half and holy hell it was GOOD. i just love those boys live. i don't know how they do it. they really must be the hardest working rock and roll band. get a tap on the arm across sKoTt during the rock set to see ex's friend waving and smiling. i lean in for a hug, say hi, look up to notice the ex standing just behind us all... smiling... i'll be damned if i'm going to do introductions, fucker.

so, the show wraps up, head off to Benders 13th st Tavern to meet up with sKoTt again, Prcnct13 and his lovely woman who i actually got to talk to this time (i like her lots!), and catch a set from the railbenders and Eddie that wentt until b/w 2:15 and 2:30. they turned on the lights long enough to get rid of all the alcohol, then just kept playing. closed with steve earle's 'I don't wanna lose you yet' which is one of my (if not my) all time favorite love songs, which also happens to be just perfectly suited to eddie's voice. swayed more than danced in the dark with this wonderful man, tried not to get caught crying. too perfect. these are the moments you'll remember all your life. savor them. don't rush, don't worry about being cool, just be there.

now, here's the thing. it was an awesome and spectacular fucking experience. wonderful show(s), good crowd, all that good shit. what made it exceptional? i got to share it with the man i love more than anything. it felt so good to have him there, with me, for all of that... i'll be damned if i'm not a sap... seems like every day i think i couldn't possibly love him more, and then i do. feels like my heart's gonna explode, i swear. god, but i love being in love... wow.

so, right, i say each day i don't think i could love him more and then i do... well, saturday we got up _late_, stumbled out for breakfast, went shopping for wedding gifts for the wedding we were off to last night. after me being all pissy about being late (which was easily a joint project if not mostly my fault ) we get there just in time. i guess all we missed was the chance to raise objections, but i didn't have any, so it's all good.

gorgeous, beautiful, simple, spiritual service at this adorable episcopalian church downtown. i was fine until the bride started crying. i've known her for prob 6 yrs or so now, and we've gone through some surprisingly similar relationship ups and downs, so i may have taken it more personally than i would in a 'normal circumstance' - if there is even such a thing, but... yeah, i was fine 'til she started crying. iron doesn't say a word, just squeezes my hand and passes me his handkerchief. how could i not love this man, hmm?

off to the reception at the whiskey bar - which was a pretty hip venue, actually. i hadn't been there before (at least not since the big remodel) so it was good to see it. iron's there lookin hot as shit with his hair up and his suit on and yum. sigh. what was i saying? oh right... so we hang out, drink, talk shit, yadda yadda yadda. then the music starts. now, i dance by myself just fine, but the kinda dancing i do doesn't usually involve another person unless they happen to be sitting in the chair in front of me catching my clothes...

damn, my man can dance. it felt so good. at first i was all nervous, whatever. but just being in his arms, seeing that smile... my life is so fucking good. if i could share some of this happiness with the rest of y'all i would, in a heartbeat, but just know for now that i'm hopin and prayin you find it yourself. it's worth waiting for.

okay, i'm gonna go snuggle up and watch some broncos. be good, kids.