I think I'm too independant for my own good. I've been burned a lot in my life and sometimes feel like I can't count on anyone. I need to learn to let go and lean on people more. I've learned to let people in a lot more since my diagnosis and that's been a really great experience for me. Still makes me nervous sometimes. I... Read More
Good to read that you are heading for a good recovery, but remember, as strong as you are, asking for help is not a weakness.
(I my honest opinion, Emo has caused some very weak gents, I mean, their is being in touch with your emotions, and then being feeble. )
Moms is coming to town on Saturday to take care of me for a couple weeks since I will not be able to do much. House needs a cleaning before she gets here. I used to be clean, then I got sick and eventually said fuck it, I have better things... Read More
Hey there...I'm on the same block as Jerry's Bar...I'll promise to take you some place classier than that, even though Jer's is the premiere dive bar in Northern Liberties...
If you need any help on your road to recovery, please let me know. An ear to bend, shoulder to lean on, etc.
haven't been on much these days. Between work and Dr. appts., life has been hectic.
Hope you are all doing well.
I went to six flags for Fright Fest. It was lame and the lines were ridiculous but I did get to ride Kingda Ka the world's fasted and tallest roller coaster. It was a rush!
I did it! I rode 230 miles over three days in Tour de Pink and raised almost $5000. It was the best experience ever. I met some of the greatest people I ever hope to meet.
The hills were effing killer. there were so many on the first day and my goodies are still healing lol.
I can't even imagine how you feel and I feel ridiculous even mentioning my issues because they are nothing compared to cancer. I take things for granted and I feel guilty that I let my depression and anxiety take over my life. I would never even admit that it was a real problem until a few months ago but now I see that it's not something that I can control. You are such a strong woman and I thank you for your words of wisdom. I need to take your advice. xoxo
tomorrow I find out about surgery. I think I'm going to puke. If I knew it wouldn't land me into a big sobbing mess, I would go out and get so incredibly wasted tonight.
a need to add some more pics. my pics don't represent the way I look or feel. I feel better than those pics (most days).
so...I had the interview today. 6 people conference call and they loved me! yay me. The invited me to phoenix for a second interview. It's a prestigious (sp?) gig but I just can't swing it right now. I'm not all... Read More
after this semester ends i will go to academy for basically two semesters (32 weeks i think?). there are 24 credits worth of classed that you get for completing academy... i may have to take one or two classes after that.
by the way, someone told me once that the right choice is the one that you made.
Those multi person conference calls can be brutal extremely difficult to get a read on the entire roomyou strike me as a very competent personbeing chosen even if you reject the offer is good for the soul
Saturday I hung at the beach all day. The waves were SICK! Yes I know using the word "sick) in 2010 is not cool and shows my age but..suck it!
Sunday I rode my first 50 miles and I'm still im chemo. Makes me feel so good to just ride (though I was a little grumbly towards the end). lol... Read More
2 calls to 911 from work
shooting across the street (from my house)during daylight hours
dumb bitch threatening me at work becaues I wouldn't open the library 5 minutes early for her, then stealing the phone of my friend/coworker who only had it in the drawer of her desk becaue her father got listed for a lung transplant last night.
crying over losing my... Read More
I wanna go to the beach
(I my honest opinion, Emo has caused some very weak gents, I mean, their is being in touch with your emotions, and then being feeble. )
Sending good thoughts