Well.....another sterling moment in a month gone very very bad.
I just had a huge argument with my best friend, and it seems we are friends no more.
I have this thing, for reasons i cannot explain, where i become very quiet. I become very introspective, and do not talk much. People always assume that it is me being a snob or being cranky. Which isn't true.
Apparently, my friend was one of them.
Someone who i thought, no matter what i did or said, would understand me.
The other night, i was having such a moment, and she chastised me for being a grouch.
I got angry and pissed because she made me feel like i was a burden, when all i was doing was sitting quietly watching the tv.
So i snapped. I wrote her a very long email, in which i expressed everything that was pissing me off about her at that moment.
She took it the wrong way. Or maybe the right way. I don't know. But i hurt her.
In my anger i said alot of things, while i think being the truth, were things i should have still kept to myself.
Me being angry of course, forgot to include all the good things i think about her. How beautiful she is, how caring she is, and how much i love her as a friend.
The whole thing came out wrong. It came out as an insulting lecture, when it was meant to be an explanation of what makes me angry, and what doesn't. In an effort, i suppose, to show how me being quiet, is not me being sour.
And her being the person i was annoyed with, used her as an example for everything. Which was a grievous mistake.
All in all, she was very hurt by what i said.
Justified or not, i shouldn't have said alot of things. I feel guilty and ashamed. And stupid for letting my anger get the better of me.
How can you say sorry for such a thing, without sounding feigned and obsequious?...
It hurts to have hurt....
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind, and ends with repentance. ~ Anonymous.
I just had a huge argument with my best friend, and it seems we are friends no more.
I have this thing, for reasons i cannot explain, where i become very quiet. I become very introspective, and do not talk much. People always assume that it is me being a snob or being cranky. Which isn't true.
Apparently, my friend was one of them.
Someone who i thought, no matter what i did or said, would understand me.
The other night, i was having such a moment, and she chastised me for being a grouch.
I got angry and pissed because she made me feel like i was a burden, when all i was doing was sitting quietly watching the tv.
So i snapped. I wrote her a very long email, in which i expressed everything that was pissing me off about her at that moment.
She took it the wrong way. Or maybe the right way. I don't know. But i hurt her.
In my anger i said alot of things, while i think being the truth, were things i should have still kept to myself.
Me being angry of course, forgot to include all the good things i think about her. How beautiful she is, how caring she is, and how much i love her as a friend.
The whole thing came out wrong. It came out as an insulting lecture, when it was meant to be an explanation of what makes me angry, and what doesn't. In an effort, i suppose, to show how me being quiet, is not me being sour.
And her being the person i was annoyed with, used her as an example for everything. Which was a grievous mistake.
All in all, she was very hurt by what i said.
Justified or not, i shouldn't have said alot of things. I feel guilty and ashamed. And stupid for letting my anger get the better of me.
How can you say sorry for such a thing, without sounding feigned and obsequious?...
It hurts to have hurt....
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind, and ends with repentance. ~ Anonymous.
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im still here, just been working deadly long hours 6 days a week , so as soon as i get home it's straight to bed no time for sg loving it makes me feel sad!