Dear Diary,
I am slowly planning my escape from sanity.....It is going well.
The peace that i was relishing, has sublimated into a seemingly distant memory. To the type of something once enjoyable, that now lingers like the high-pitched throb of an alarm clock. The feeling of an unfamiliar void, beating over and over to the tune of "where has it gone?".
Well, a) I was begining to redecorate around here and when I jumped for Prom I realized that I wouldn't be able to finish this job I've started, or at least not for a couple months, and that would drive me batty. b) I've never taken myself on a real 'vacation' I've only gone places I needed to do things in and the thought of doing it again with SF really bummed me out.
I've decided the next time I fly anywhere it'll be to somewhere tropical. Maybe an all-inclusive retreat to Puerto Vallarta? I noticed that you can get a super deluxe package for $12-1500. And here I was about to spend $1200 on SF. I suppose you could say it just didn't add up for me.
I just have to find a travel buddy. It's always funner (funner?) to go with someone, even if you're just reading at the pool, I just don't know anyone who has the cash. So now I'm on the hunt for one.
my computer hates me. i swear it does. i am so sorry for this delayed answer but hopefully you worked out everything with your best friend. im going to take it like you did because of your blog hahahaha.. i had oreos yesterday teehehehehe and they where the original, where you can never go wrong. mmm.
im being the biggerst procrastinator right now. hahah i was supposed to pack up some boxes the beginning of last week and i havent even begun to unfold the box hahahahahha.. thats what i will be doing today. woopie.
oh and for future refrence, i usually wait a day or two then if they are non approachable i write a letter explaining myself and the situation and hope they read it and call me, or talk to me. but i am also a girl and i dont know if you would feel comfortable doing that.
hope your days good!
I'm going to start an Oreo revolution with sarahphina the wonder-gal.....
My book is coming along like a train on fire.....
Eventually, someday....the sneaky aussie will arrive in Vancouver, and i expect a ball of laughs and good times. And this town will be one reason better.
I'm glad things are going so well for you. You know, I just heard that San Fran isn't as warm as I had originally thought when booking my tickets. Looks like you're going to have to give me a tour of your hometown so I get at least SOME heat in this rainy, bleh winter of ours.
I think i'm going to sell my car and get another bike.
I think i'm going to fuck off on long road trips more often.
I think i need to return to the fun-loving surf-rebel guy, that got me the nickname Trinidad Red
Instead of the worrying-about-paying-the-bills pussy that i am right now.
Time to break out my ACDC library, and follow it's scripture.
Well.....another sterling moment in a month gone very very bad.
I just had a huge argument with my best friend, and it seems we are friends no more.
I have this thing, for reasons i cannot explain, where i become very quiet. I become very introspective, and do not talk much. People always assume that it is me being a snob or being cranky. Which... Read More
im still here, just been working deadly long hours 6 days a week , so as soon as i get home it's straight to bed no time for sg loving it makes me feel sad!
damn. been there. thankfully things were patched up and we're still great friends. although, our friendship did change. i hope you can rescue the friendship.
i've seen brazil, but it was a really long time ago. too long, in fact. terry gilliam is up there with some of my favourite directors. it's a shame the brother's grimm was so disappointing.
when my deep sea hideaway is complete, i think i'll host a film night. mmmmm...snobbery.
I avoided updating yesterday, cause i knew anything i wrote would come out cynical. I'm not a valentines hater. I just don't see the point. The way you treat your s.o. should be to the best of your ability at all times....and should completely invalidate the need for valentines day.
But then again...who can argue against another excuse for bedroom... Read More
i also think that valentines day should be changed to a friends holiday if a holiday at all because it sucks. but i did make a new friend in a blind date gone wrong hahahah but it was all good. a couple vodka cranberrys to wash down the boredness and turn it into amusement. god i can always count on that haha.
ooo i have a new flavor for our exotic oreo line. pina colada. its good, they're good, hey it could work.
yah i was looking at a camera for about the same price.. well in there. fuckin shoot me or at least give me a winning lotto ticket.
i should sell my jeans on ebay. but then i wouldnt own anymore. i am, after all, a klutz and even more so when i tend to get tipsy. its all good. maybe i can afford my camera then hehe.
i get home tomorrow. back to reality. merrrrrr.
i am considering moving to colorado tho. that should be interesting.
When I was single, my ex-roommate and I had an idea for celebrating Valentine's day. We tried to think of the most unromantic thing we could, and came up with this:
Valentine's Day Colonics! (Colon Irrigation). We only did it once, but it was magical.
--Lo--
Today was spent at various funeral events for my uncle. Funeral mass, burial, wake....
So nothing much to report really. Other than the unfortunate circumstance of having to be around my sisters all day. I wasn't even there 20 min, and i wished i was in the coffin.
Self-righteous bitches. And that's what i told him when i went to pay respects. I called him... Read More
the jeans in the pic i ruined in my little drunken stumble the other night, and you know you love my snowman rex.
i say we go ahead and pitch the coconut ooo wait "hawaiian style" oreo's and have dunking oreo contest on tv with david while dissing oprah. and you are right about the snobby woodpuppet cus damn she is.
my sister is the same but managed to loosin up a little bit over the year. thank fuckin god.
no i do not have lung cancer but unless i stop smoking pronto (i'm in the process!!!) and keep this up i will have it in say 40 years. i'm doing pretty well i think. just a couple a day but not a pack. soon enough sooooon e.nough. i know its a nasty habit.
i do not want a digital right now.. probably in a year or so when i can afford the one i want wich is not cheap (you know how that is) and then theres a whole new thing i have to learn about, but somehow i think its easier then 35mm because i dont have to worry about developing chemicals, just the paper and a good fuckin printer. wich, again, is not cheap. all in good time tho right?
i have been freezing my ass off for the past 5 days. haaha i used some of my dirty socks to cover my hands to make the snowman. i use my noggin hahahahah
Not destroyed....but i can't take a step anywhere without hitting a bottle with my foot.
There are people passed out in places and positions i didn't even know was possible to fall asleep in.
And there is that morning-after-party stench wafting through the place.
Cigarette butts in the sink, as well as pots and pans.
The washroom faucet was still... Read More
Yeah, Sam Morse probably was being dramatic. Still, it makes for great cyberpunk fodder.
I am also reminded, of course, of Alex Bell's "Watson, come here, I need you." Now why would a guy say something innocuous for the first ever telephone transmission? When it isn't innocuous. Bell and Watson shared the love that dare not speak it's name!
It ain't subtle, but I do like, "I am become death, the destroyer of worlds."
You know when you're lying in bed and reading a book, or looking at tv, or just lying there...and someone you really like is playing with / running their fingers through the hair on the back of your head.
That's the feeling i miss right now.
That's my favourite feeling.
Once i dreamed a dream.......but now that dream is gone from me...
Reading laura_belle's journal remeinded me of the fact that i still don't feel at home in this town.
It's definately the people.
I don't even feel on the same wave-length as anybody. They don't get me, i don't get them. The men are complete bastards that think of nothing except their image... Read More
and i love to eat.
and then throw up.
so i can eat even more.
just kidding.