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Monday Apr 05, 2010

Apr 5, 2010
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How does one live in this climate? In this world where cold is cold and heat is sought after yet never truly gained. One is always cold in a loveless life and what more can we expect from a loveless world? The stars here are not the right way up to be my home. My arms long to wrap around, apologetic for what I've done. Everything. What now? Still everything to me that's for sure. And I remain nothing. A blip in the past. A smack on the wrist for taking a chance that should have been beautiful, but turned out a small hell inside. There is no apology worth love, and so my life lies useless in hands I never truly appreciated.

I wish so many things but the thing I wish most is that I was not back in England. This is not and has never been my home. Going on holiday to Australia was more like going home after the longest holiday I've ever had. I've been all over the world and in only one place does my heart remain. Make it good, get home. Be everything you want to be, after all that's what you would tell your children. Why should something be true for them and not for yourself. How could you even have children, or tell them that, if you don't live it yourself?

Always on my own I wander, full of love that can never be understood. I am without a home, or family, without the wings that would allow me flight, that would allow me love, family, home, a life. In the dark I ponder why it is that I came to be this person, this way. All souls go out like candles. It is always another person who snuffs that light out, in one way or another. I am destined to die but moreso of heartbreak. This is my dark world.

Which of the paths I was offered should I have taken, and which am I to take now? No one will guide me, I make my own way through sludge so thick you can barely move your feet, the path behind me immediately covered by more of life's eternal heap of shit. I don't know where I came from, I don't know where I'm going. The only thing I can do is feel my way, follow my emotions to whatever end. I spent so long ignoring them that I became emotionless, and it nearly killed me. Now I choose the opposite, and I urge whoever reads this to do the same. Do not ignore your emotions, they are your guide through this dark life, they are the only light you have to guide you. Trust only that, do not trust others past a point, they will only bury you deeper. Be, let others be, follow your emotions or end up a fool, alone, in the dark, like me.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
silvermoon:
There's no way you can be hotter... tongue ... Just saying
Apr 12, 2010
minecreeper:
i know these ideas, they are the journey. your perspective chooses what it means to you individually; i feel your statements are very true. YAY you are my friend biggrin
Apr 17, 2010

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