sakquan

This chick reminds me of how psycho Cameron Diaz was in Vanilla Sky.

I wasn't an army brat but I know basically how hard it is to cut ties with friends you make and then you have to move. I guess you can say I'm a nomad. So my whole life I've been moving around, making new friends and leaving good ones behind.
To me, my best friend is the only one who stayed in touch with me and not just leave at that when I moved away from town or on the other side of town. Even when I moved to Hawaii and Los Angeles, she still talked to me and vice versa. Yeah we had hard times when we didn't talk but it was nothing as hurtful as what had happened two weeks ago.
Yeah I had other "friends" who screwed me over and that was that, but with her I could never end something that is so important to me.

Well, since that noght happened, I have been putting alot of distance to see if sje noticed and to give her a little space. I wasn't sure if she would seee and understand why I was pulling away from her. But the night before last night, I talked with her and told her how I felt and how I was not to be just a convienence, that I had needs and feelings too, right? At first I don't think she knew how bad I was hurting, but when I told her that I wasn't satisfied with her reaction and response, and left the room, I think she noticed how much I was hurt.

I know things won't go back the way they were. Life doesn't work that way, otherwise things would never change and life without change sucks. But I hope from all this she could respect me a little more and give me a little credit for my effort. You know?

Talk about lengthy messages.


But thanks for your help. Really. I think you and Valerisa have given more time to hear me out than some people. ANd that's awsome.

As they say in hawaiian... Mahalo ... ( so corny I know... I know.)

Monaj