saintwithascope

So it's Friday night at 8:30...

I'm by myself watching sweet home alabama... sorta... it's on but I'm not really watching it...

I suddenly got this overwhelming wave of depression slam into me... I don't think I really want to take my ex out next weekend... but I promised her that I would... I guess I could make an excuse... I've kind of given up on the trying to be chivalrous bit anymore... maybe I shouldn't be so selfish, but no ones ever really done anything for me sans my parents. And maybe that's selfish... but that's how it is...

Anyway, I still have had no luck with finding anyone to play music with... it's been well over 3 years since I've played in a band... so I have decided to be creative in another fashion and I want to start acting... I've always been interested in it but I was more concerned with doing something with my music... but I'm almost 25 and although I have released some stuff on some small indie labels and toured half the country... I haven't done anything in the past 3 years...

If anyone has any tips on how to get into acting, or how to audition or something, I'd love to know... I haven't auditioned for a play since 5th grade, granted I did get the main part... I'm good with accents and they liked my Einstein impression for the professor. I just need to get over my shyness or whatever it is that somehow didn't exist whenever I was a child but has enveloped my entire being in my adult life... maybe a couple hits of scotch first haha...

Anyway, i notice i start quite a few paragraphs with that... anyway... I dunno... I need to do something though... relationships don't seem to work for me (all kinds, not just women), neither has the music bit... so maybe I'll try my hand at acting and I think theater would be the best thing to start out with being Fort Worth isn't exactly a hot spot for cinema or television... although I'd really like to get into directing eventually...

I was gonna go somewhere else with this post but I forgot where I was gonna go with it... ah well... hope you all have lovely weekends... mine is shaping up to be quite a bore so far... the only thing i have to look forward too is Tin Man and Desperate Housewives Sunday night... but then they come on different channels at the same time so I'm in a bit of a pickle... ah well I'll figure it out...