saintpepsi

I've long sense been over due for a new blogging spot. The rest of my writing places have been over run by people who read them that are directly related to the content. For now I will make this my new writing sanctuary. Starting off with how I truly need to stop chasing girls that are impossible to get. For instance my friend Sully. She is such a powerful force for awesome in my life and i am in every way attracted to her. Complication. She's Married. I'm ok with that I would never move or act on any romantic urge towards a taken woman. Lets face it that's far to much drama. Still I also know how unhappy she has been in this situation. Try as I might, I can't shrug off the desire to be hers. This would be easier if she hadn't confided her desire to be with me as well. The marriage was spontaneous and has had some disastrous complications form from that haste. Recently, I thought she had finally broken it apart. She had moved to a whole different part of the world. That didn't work out to well for her and upon her return she told me I had kept her alive there. While her husband had repeatedly brought her down. So naturally I stupidly thought that meant she would look into us as an option. Not so it seems. In the hopes of keeping a friendship she returned to talk out the issues they had. Apparently, he had managed to grow up in the few months he was gone. I found this hard to believe. In fact i don't. People don't change they just find ways of suppressing the parts of them that complicate things. For a weekend he managed to suppress these, bringing faith back into her that their marriage was salvageable. I'm sure it could be, however when they were out together. His estranged wife was at his beck and call. Waiting on him like a god. He was stoic and distant. As he took picture after picture that night none included her. Try as she might he seemed an arms length away at all times. Making it her responsibility to win back his favor. This makes little to no sense to me. Why when he had brought so much pain to her life does she need to show all the effort in rekindling their relationship. I see this time and time again with relationships. A power play where one does all the giving and the other does all the taking. Anyway, rant done. Nice to have it out of me finally. Thanks Suicide Girls for being my new writing venue.

A Saint's view on life

Jordan Mizell