since last we spoke i have:
handed in my notice at the bar;
failed to find a new job - probably through lack of looking;
painted half of my flat, including staining the bloody floorboards;
spent an entire day sanding the rather nice wooden floors that i was lucky enough to find lurking under the manky carpet;
pissed off my new landlord and neighbours (see...
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handed in my notice at the bar;
failed to find a new job - probably through lack of looking;
painted half of my flat, including staining the bloody floorboards;
spent an entire day sanding the rather nice wooden floors that i was lucky enough to find lurking under the manky carpet;
pissed off my new landlord and neighbours (see...
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a murder of crows, we all know.
a parliament of rooks, i knew also, via gaiman.
apparently this has its roots in a mediaeval belief that they were thought to be judging the souls of recently deceased.
but now ravens... ah, ravens!
the largest of the corvids, and the longest living, these monogamous, remarkably intelligent birds (they can count up to at least...
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a parliament of rooks, i knew also, via gaiman.
apparently this has its roots in a mediaeval belief that they were thought to be judging the souls of recently deceased.
but now ravens... ah, ravens!
the largest of the corvids, and the longest living, these monogamous, remarkably intelligent birds (they can count up to at least...
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mro:
Hmmmmm. That sounds too much like Pagan for my liking *gives you a suspicious frown*
the scent of rain
The air washes over me thick and heavy. On my tongue the odour of rich fertility mingles with the fermenting sugars of soft, rotting death. The warm air is drenched in the sweet stench of summer, soaked in the dripping scent of excess, rising on my every breath. I inhale the raindrops before they fall, threatening sulkily, bustling impatiently behind the...
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The air washes over me thick and heavy. On my tongue the odour of rich fertility mingles with the fermenting sugars of soft, rotting death. The warm air is drenched in the sweet stench of summer, soaked in the dripping scent of excess, rising on my every breath. I inhale the raindrops before they fall, threatening sulkily, bustling impatiently behind the...
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snowballinhell:
the odour of sex it's been so long, I've forgotten what it smells like 
The storm we had yesterday was awesome, and I was out getting wet in it for over 3 hours
I 
thunderstorms, the senses, the smells, the atmosphere, the being out when the lightning strikes and the thunder booms *sigh*
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
The storm we had yesterday was awesome, and I was out getting wet in it for over 3 hours
I thunderstorms, the senses, the smells, the atmosphere, the being out when the lightning strikes and the thunder booms *sigh*
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
hot summer nights that follow
hot summer days:
this is why
the world was made.
x
hot summer days:
this is why
the world was made.
x
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rainwolfkin:
ok, i'll see you then. i'm not sure what's happening with the others as 1 is coming from out of town and sdog has a meeting at some point in the evening, but i'm sure everything will work out. see you then 
suicidedoggie:
As Rain points out, I have a friggin meeting this evening. I may head to the J3 sometime between 4 and 6.30 for a bevvy with SomeoneUK and you'd be most welcome too. OTOH the meeting should be over by about 8.30 so I may catch up with you and Rain afterwards?
... and things start to slow down ... and make sense
3 non-bar-related jobs that i have been given this week:
1. monday
extra-ing in anthony minguela's new film with jude law, robin wright-penn, and other celeb names that i can't remember, like the guy from hitchhiker's and the orifice... 60 for the day, and they fed me. and i played an architect. all-in-all, tiring...
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3 non-bar-related jobs that i have been given this week:
1. monday
extra-ing in anthony minguela's new film with jude law, robin wright-penn, and other celeb names that i can't remember, like the guy from hitchhiker's and the orifice... 60 for the day, and they fed me. and i played an architect. all-in-all, tiring...
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rainwolfkin:
i "know" exactly what you "mean". stupid pomos. 
i'll be looking forward to your response. you always seem to have something interesting to say, and especially about this subject.
i'll be looking forward to your response. you always seem to have something interesting to say, and especially about this subject.
kickinglovers:
How was Wales?
London, i spent most of my day in camden and most of that section in Ice Wharf.. as you do. The club in which the gig was set (100club) is delightful.. I recommend should you like jazz or even any bands upcoming at the venue, to take a trip. I am returning to london, I suspect in 3/4 weeks. Maybe then?
Hope you are well darling.
x
London, i spent most of my day in camden and most of that section in Ice Wharf.. as you do. The club in which the gig was set (100club) is delightful.. I recommend should you like jazz or even any bands upcoming at the venue, to take a trip. I am returning to london, I suspect in 3/4 weeks. Maybe then?
Hope you are well darling.
x
you: how did the exams go?
me: they went...
**** **** **** ****
when things stack up it can feel like a pressure, a burden.
sometimes they stack up behind you, and then it feels like they're on top of you.
and then, when you remember, you breathe.
things that are stacked up, it turns out, are easily knocked down.
everything's perspective.
what felt like...
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me: they went...
**** **** **** ****
when things stack up it can feel like a pressure, a burden.
sometimes they stack up behind you, and then it feels like they're on top of you.
and then, when you remember, you breathe.
things that are stacked up, it turns out, are easily knocked down.
everything's perspective.
what felt like...
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snowballinhell:
Indeed, I bet you never thought I'd be this capable of having such profound thoughts 
But I did tell you a while back that I'm a deep thinker
1) I totally agree there has to be some physical connection but in what aspect of physical are you talking about? Facial, figure, or both? Being someone who's not as aesthetically pleasing to the eye figure-wise, I'm always interested to know what goes on in the mind of someone of the opposite sex. I've had the smiles and eye catches from people when I've been in the car and then see the drop in expression when they've seen me outside of the car. It angers and saddens me more than feeling hurt, that someone can judge by what someone else looks like without even wanting to acknowledge what that person has been through first. By the way, this isn't geared towards a fight with you, it's not meant to anger, before I dig myself a big hole They say that first impressions count and don't judge a book by its cover. True, but which is the first impression? The looks or the ability to communicate? And I agree with the book/cover aspect. A beautiful cover may hold nothing but blank pages whereas a torn, ripped and well used cover may hold a deeper more beautiful meaning inside.
You also say love is forever, but I would have to say that it depends on the sort of love. Unconditional to a partner/child, or the love of a friend. Personally, the only true love I have any more is reserved solely for my children, it's unconditional and no matter what they do in their lives as they develop, my love for them will always remain. The love I had for my partner however, well that isn't forever, I thought it was in the very beginning but things change, people change and love can die and not be forever in those instances. Maybe, reading that, I never truly found the love of my life despite thinking I had all those years ago as a naive teenager.
Sheesh, I do get myself into some complicated situations!
2) As children we are more open to suggestion simply because we know no different, and by growing up we do lose that innocence, mainly because we live in such a fucked up world now but also because we're almost programmed through the early years of the education system to fit in with the crowd and follow the leader, rather than following our own instincts and making our mark on society right from the beginning. Even at a very early age we have our own thoughts about whether we like something or not, it's what happens in our lives from then on in as to how those though thoughts progress into actions. It will be interesting to see whether my opinion on this matter changes once my own children start the long route of the education system this year
WoW! I think this has to be the longest journal reply I've ever done! Are you impressed considering it's after 11pm
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
[Edited on Jun 08, 2005 11:28PM]
But I did tell you a while back that I'm a deep thinker
1) I totally agree there has to be some physical connection but in what aspect of physical are you talking about? Facial, figure, or both? Being someone who's not as aesthetically pleasing to the eye figure-wise, I'm always interested to know what goes on in the mind of someone of the opposite sex. I've had the smiles and eye catches from people when I've been in the car and then see the drop in expression when they've seen me outside of the car. It angers and saddens me more than feeling hurt, that someone can judge by what someone else looks like without even wanting to acknowledge what that person has been through first. By the way, this isn't geared towards a fight with you, it's not meant to anger, before I dig myself a big hole
They say that first impressions count and don't judge a book by its cover. True, but which is the first impression? The looks or the ability to communicate? And I agree with the book/cover aspect. A beautiful cover may hold nothing but blank pages whereas a torn, ripped and well used cover may hold a deeper more beautiful meaning inside.
You also say love is forever, but I would have to say that it depends on the sort of love. Unconditional to a partner/child, or the love of a friend. Personally, the only true love I have any more is reserved solely for my children, it's unconditional and no matter what they do in their lives as they develop, my love for them will always remain. The love I had for my partner however, well that isn't forever, I thought it was in the very beginning but things change, people change and love can die and not be forever in those instances. Maybe, reading that, I never truly found the love of my life despite thinking I had all those years ago as a naive teenager.
Sheesh, I do get myself into some complicated situations!
2) As children we are more open to suggestion simply because we know no different, and by growing up we do lose that innocence, mainly because we live in such a fucked up world now but also because we're almost programmed through the early years of the education system to fit in with the crowd and follow the leader, rather than following our own instincts and making our mark on society right from the beginning. Even at a very early age we have our own thoughts about whether we like something or not, it's what happens in our lives from then on in as to how those though thoughts progress into actions. It will be interesting to see whether my opinion on this matter changes once my own children start the long route of the education system this year
WoW! I think this has to be the longest journal reply I've ever done! Are you impressed considering it's after 11pm
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
[Edited on Jun 08, 2005 11:28PM]
jazz:
how do you know whether you are attracted to someone because of who they are, or who they're not?
Its kind of one and the same. When you really think about it.
is thinking so loud really so bad? Nope not at all. Except in a library
what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'm never gonna grow up. But whatever takes my fancy at that moment.
MWAH!
Jazz
Its kind of one and the same. When you really think about it.
is thinking so loud really so bad? Nope not at all. Except in a library
what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'm never gonna grow up. But whatever takes my fancy at that moment.
MWAH!
Jazz
moody.
moodymoodymoody...
moody, tired, and on the verge of cerebral overload. truly.
****
last exam on thursday.
preparing: shamanism, ethnographic writing, history/histories;
back-up topics: nationalism, ritual, and possibly syncretism.
and then this crap is all over.
normal serviced shall be resumed soon after.
****
so, what have you been up to since last we spoke?
xxx
moodymoodymoody...
moody, tired, and on the verge of cerebral overload. truly.
****
last exam on thursday.
preparing: shamanism, ethnographic writing, history/histories;
back-up topics: nationalism, ritual, and possibly syncretism.
and then this crap is all over.
normal serviced shall be resumed soon after.
****
so, what have you been up to since last we spoke?
xxx
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albertine:
yes, I love that site, I've ben waiting for somebody to mail order some jewelry with me, so that we can share expenses!!!!.
your studies seem amazng, and I do understand you hate london: I cannot stand it either! where are you originally from???.
your studies seem amazng, and I do understand you hate london: I cannot stand it either! where are you originally from???.
snowballinhell:
Hey gorgeous
So, it's all over bar the shouting now then Have you taken time out to flake out and fall into a heap on the floor going, thank you, it's over now maybe I can have a life?
Hope you're doing ok sweetie, I miss not hearing from you.
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
So, it's all over bar the shouting now then
Have you taken time out to flake out and fall into a heap on the floor going, thank you, it's over now maybe I can have a life?
Hope you're doing ok sweetie, I miss not hearing from you.
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
The following is from an article by Piers Vitebsky on both the decline and rise of shamanism in the face of globalization. But that's much less interesting than the quote:
"From then until the mid-1980s, shamans were ridiculed or exiled, and at times (especially from the 1930s to 1950s) shot or dropped out of helicopters and challenged to fly."
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"From then until the mid-1980s, shamans were ridiculed or exiled, and at times (especially from the 1930s to 1950s) shot or dropped out of helicopters and challenged to fly."
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leola:
You're sick, but I like it.
medusaq:
it's really not funny, but i felt the compulsion to laugh as well. it's the phrase "challenged to fly".
that's funny. or, at least, a funny way to express cynicism for healing powers.
that's funny. or, at least, a funny way to express cynicism for healing powers.
one down: one to go.
bear with me.
(possibly bare with me.)
off now to see if i can
become a postmodernist;
if only for the next fortnight.
damn pomos.
and then it's all over. ze rock und ze roll, as they're wont to say.
keep saying things,
i promise i'm listening.
hugs and kisses to all and sundry,
even if i am an absent...
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bear with me.
(possibly bare with me.)
off now to see if i can
become a postmodernist;
if only for the next fortnight.
damn pomos.
and then it's all over. ze rock und ze roll, as they're wont to say.
keep saying things,
i promise i'm listening.
hugs and kisses to all and sundry,
even if i am an absent...
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kickinglovers:
nope.. a master rabbit. so surely they would have to go along with their colour...
lala is bananamash - not vanilla.
po is strawberry - or googleberry (of course this doesnt exist but neither do the teletubbies and it seems appropriate).
dipsy is just lime.. like lime fruit gums. not really that nice.
tinkyimsoannoyingwinky is obviously rasberrypoo.
i hate rasberry sweets. that word looks wrong? my brain is frozen i think.
Meh.
lala is bananamash - not vanilla.
po is strawberry - or googleberry (of course this doesnt exist but neither do the teletubbies and it seems appropriate).
dipsy is just lime.. like lime fruit gums. not really that nice.
tinkyimsoannoyingwinky is obviously rasberrypoo.
i hate rasberry sweets. that word looks wrong? my brain is frozen i think.
Meh.
snowballinhell:
Who told you the glass was half full 
Liars! It's always half empty Haha
I do hope you're not too stressed out sweet man
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
Liars! It's always half empty Haha
I do hope you're not too stressed out sweet man
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
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suicidedoggie:
Looks like some blinds or curtains may be in order, unless you like waking up at 4am for morning prayers or something. 
Good luck. I went into those things with a mad and reckless abandon, in the true spirit of the charge of the Light Brigade. Huzzah! Huzzah!
Good luck. I went into those things with a mad and reckless abandon, in the true spirit of the charge of the Light Brigade. Huzzah! Huzzah!
danielle:
good luck. i here yah on the crazy final nonsense. i am finished now and i am happy.
Only a little bit Marxist? Clearly we need a talk!