i've been holding myself tight.
i have learned from many an individual that the first step in relieving tension is to recognise its existence; the first step to avoid a trap is to know that is there.
i hold myself in a bubble of caution. though mostly when i think about what i'm doing... which is only a problem because i think so much.
it...
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i have learned from many an individual that the first step in relieving tension is to recognise its existence; the first step to avoid a trap is to know that is there.
i hold myself in a bubble of caution. though mostly when i think about what i'm doing... which is only a problem because i think so much.
it...
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I was bewailing my fear,
and in response Keturah passed comment that:
they hand out a dose of the fear with a college degree
that or before that they hand out enough work to keep you preoccupied enough not to notice.
I remain of the romantic persuasion that any "future career" should not act to blind me of my responsibilties, my concerns, my...
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and in response Keturah passed comment that:
they hand out a dose of the fear with a college degree
that or before that they hand out enough work to keep you preoccupied enough not to notice.
I remain of the romantic persuasion that any "future career" should not act to blind me of my responsibilties, my concerns, my...
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rainwolfkin:
i hated duck til dawn! i thought it was one of the worst movies ever made - that is, of course, except for every movie of the category Romantic Comedy.
i agree with your sentiments about careers. i just want to spend my life doing something that i see as meaningful. it'd be much easier if i actually believed in traditional meaning providing activities or ideologies, like religion or something...
i agree with your sentiments about careers. i just want to spend my life doing something that i see as meaningful. it'd be much easier if i actually believed in traditional meaning providing activities or ideologies, like religion or something...
someoneuk:
Well hopefully, just maybe both the moral and some sort of job will work out. *crosses fingers*
the secret to a good chilli is the inclusion of chocolate.
in fact, the secret to good anything is the inclusion of chocolate, bur nevertheless.
i once wrote a story about a girl with a cursed heart.
life imitating art, i fear.
my grandmother is beginning her final lap.
it's a reasonably long lap, mind; i just think she needed more warning.
i might be...
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in fact, the secret to good anything is the inclusion of chocolate, bur nevertheless.
i once wrote a story about a girl with a cursed heart.
life imitating art, i fear.
my grandmother is beginning her final lap.
it's a reasonably long lap, mind; i just think she needed more warning.
i might be...
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kickinglovers:
i just meant this monday..
mainly.
but.
travesty.
i'm thinking of monday that have held .sin.
or which day maybe.
is worst.
mm.xx
mainly.
but.
travesty.
i'm thinking of monday that have held .sin.
or which day maybe.
is worst.
mm.xx
keturah:
chocolate?? hmm...i dunno
i think they hand out a dose of the fear with a college degree
that or before that they hand out enough work to keep you preoccupied enough not to notice it
i think they hand out a dose of the fear with a college degree
that or before that they hand out enough work to keep you preoccupied enough not to notice it
well, the swede departed henceforth and forthwith.
... and i agreed wholeheartedly.
i must add that living by oneself is an absolute pleasure
(perhaps only for the moment, thought this does not lessen it so)
and i must thank one and all who helped me in that decision.
on an unrelated note:
i have a job. i'm not loving it, but nevertheless...
you are now...
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... and i agreed wholeheartedly.
i must add that living by oneself is an absolute pleasure
(perhaps only for the moment, thought this does not lessen it so)
and i must thank one and all who helped me in that decision.
on an unrelated note:
i have a job. i'm not loving it, but nevertheless...
you are now...
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nikkidanger:
Hey I thought you would be joining us yesterday. Was looking forward to meeting u 
You re website looks very exciting. I ll spend more time at it when I get a chance.
You re website looks very exciting. I ll spend more time at it when I get a chance.
suicidedoggie:
Yes. In person. Good. And let's talk slowly.
Shall we decry and bemoan? Shall we hoist a flag or fly a kite? Shall we pose and puff up? Shall we perhaps dance in it all?
Shall we decry and bemoan? Shall we hoist a flag or fly a kite? Shall we pose and puff up? Shall we perhaps dance in it all?
how do you ask a bed-friend, politely, to grow up?
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i am still of the belief that love is just
two people in the same place
at the same moment.
most of the time we miss each other,
like poetically-vomitous boats
on mist-filled eves,
drifitng past, scarcely aware.
alt:
why kind of popcorn would sir care for? salty or sweet?
salty, please.
i'm sorry...
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i am still of the belief that love is just
two people in the same place
at the same moment.
most of the time we miss each other,
like poetically-vomitous boats
on mist-filled eves,
drifitng past, scarcely aware.
alt:
why kind of popcorn would sir care for? salty or sweet?
salty, please.
i'm sorry...
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keturah:
having waited tables for several years im aware of how possible it would be
possibly why it bugs me so much how badly she is failing and no one forced her to learn it right
22 isnt that young...well.....no, its not THAT young, but maybe, just maybe its young enough that she could still learn.....
and yes, those are mine
possibly why it bugs me so much how badly she is failing and no one forced her to learn it right
22 isnt that young...well.....no, its not THAT young, but maybe, just maybe its young enough that she could still learn.....
and yes, those are mine
keturah:
ahh yes, well leaving the country certainly makes immaturity a bit easier to deal with
is swedish bad??
i mean i think you brits should sleep with foreign girls, i like how thats worked out so far
and yes your too old, all you 25 year olds are ridiculusly stuck in your ways
is swedish bad??
i mean i think you brits should sleep with foreign girls, i like how thats worked out so far
and yes your too old, all you 25 year olds are ridiculusly stuck in your ways
new flat: yay!
no internet: boo!
brick lane: yay!
left mac bar: yay!
very very poor: boo!
sunshine: yay!
that's four yays to two boos.
and i'm reading my first james ellroy...
life, overall, is rather good.
how you doin'?
x
no internet: boo!
brick lane: yay!
left mac bar: yay!
very very poor: boo!
sunshine: yay!
that's four yays to two boos.
and i'm reading my first james ellroy...
life, overall, is rather good.
how you doin'?
x
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yeoman:
4 YAY'S & 2 BOO'S! Thats not so bad mate! So how is the new flat? I'd like to be able to move myself, I'm currently in a share house in NW2, it's ok but I'd like my own space! Anyways, good to hear that all is cool with you!
someoneuk:
receipe it works better if you elave out the nuts, use lots of fresh cherries and use shortbread for the biscuit. Well enjoy cooking it. 
Hope the move went well, and the new flat is lovely!
Hope the move went well, and the new flat is lovely!
sound off.
are you all okay, my fellow londoners?
the roofless bus is right by my (and rainwolfkin's) uni...
and i still can't get hold of some of my friends there.
it's strange.
almost all mobile networks are still down.
texts confirming safety dribble in when they can,
police sirens still fire past my window...
the mechanical response of the city is impressive.
efficient.
the...
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are you all okay, my fellow londoners?
the roofless bus is right by my (and rainwolfkin's) uni...
and i still can't get hold of some of my friends there.
it's strange.
almost all mobile networks are still down.
texts confirming safety dribble in when they can,
police sirens still fire past my window...
the mechanical response of the city is impressive.
efficient.
the...
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ttrent:
Like the wife says, our clans are all in one piece. Glad you're okay, hope those texts keep dribbling in.
Yes, some value indeed. We were all raised on Michael Caine in Zulu, The Black Knight in Monty Python's Holy Grail, and real life IRA bombing. No wonder we are so weird....
Yes, some value indeed. We were all raised on Michael Caine in Zulu, The Black Knight in Monty Python's Holy Grail, and real life IRA bombing. No wonder we are so weird....
yeoman:
Hey, thanks for the message! I was working at Sloane Square yesterday so no where near as close as you to the incident! Good to hear you are ok! It's true about the great brittish resolve!
tonight is my last shift at the mac cocking bar.
saturday we hand over the keys to the house in camden.
and thus it is that on sunday i shall be:
unemployed, and living in a one bedroom flat.
well, pad, really...
oh the bachelor existence.
isn't it horrible (yet sometimes frighteningly exhilirating) when one realises how easy it is to become a cliche...?
if...
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saturday we hand over the keys to the house in camden.
and thus it is that on sunday i shall be:
unemployed, and living in a one bedroom flat.
well, pad, really...
oh the bachelor existence.
isn't it horrible (yet sometimes frighteningly exhilirating) when one realises how easy it is to become a cliche...?
if...
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snowballinhell:
I know, it sucks *sigh* but at least I've got 3 weeks work so that should help a little. I find out tomorrow how many hours I'll be working so at least I can give the bank some sort of idea of an amount that will be going in. Why does money have to cause so many problems *shrug*
Good luck for the weekend, I'm sure it'll all feel slightly weird for a while. Do you have another job to go to?
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
Good luck for the weekend, I'm sure it'll all feel slightly weird for a while. Do you have another job to go to?
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
kombucha:
all i can offer is hugs and kisses. so unemployed also 
that sucks
that sucks how much do you wish you were at live 8?!
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suicidedoggie:
Depathologizing anxiety. The idea is that the normative discourse around the experience of living is shaded with all kinds of apparently dark and negative tones - fear, lonliness, cosmic impotence, etc. It is so normative in fact that it is quite hard to think of "being" in other terms. Although Continental philosophy attempts to treat this "condition" as being just human, rather than being something wrong with being normal, it's basis in doing so is still darkly shaded. They talk about "problems in living" and the "givens of existence" (which are always described as negatives).
Pooey, I say! We can talk differently about living and being.
Anyway, trying hard to catch up with everyone, having been AWOL for a week, so that's all I can spew forth right now.
Did someone mention drinks?
Pooey, I say! We can talk differently about living and being.
Anyway, trying hard to catch up with everyone, having been AWOL for a week, so that's all I can spew forth right now.
Did someone mention drinks?
kombucha:
no i was talking about the live8 i wanted to go to the one in philli cuz the one in england sucked
I did something stupid,
and got in trouble for it.
Deservingly.
But nonetheless the whole thing chafes.
My flat looks good though.
it's all very white... with a big red wall.
We sat down afterwards, three of us,
with a curry from a real, honest-to-god,
awfentic Brick Lane curry-house,
a bottle of wine and a little block of hash.
Nestled in amongst the openness
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and got in trouble for it.
Deservingly.
But nonetheless the whole thing chafes.
My flat looks good though.
it's all very white... with a big red wall.
We sat down afterwards, three of us,
with a curry from a real, honest-to-god,
awfentic Brick Lane curry-house,
a bottle of wine and a little block of hash.
Nestled in amongst the openness
of...
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leola:
Brick Lane rocks. We should all go there for a curry sometime.
Itis okay to attach sentiment to places, as long as it is in perspective. I am more sad about my parents selling my childhood home than I was to leave my first married home. I guess I keep memories in my childhood home that I cannot bring with me in my current life - first fumbles, tears, tantrums etc. What I had in my flat, on the other hand, is still with me, wherever I go.
Puppy dog eyes right back.
Itis okay to attach sentiment to places, as long as it is in perspective. I am more sad about my parents selling my childhood home than I was to leave my first married home. I guess I keep memories in my childhood home that I cannot bring with me in my current life - first fumbles, tears, tantrums etc. What I had in my flat, on the other hand, is still with me, wherever I go.
Puppy dog eyes right back.
anaphalaxis:
your space defines your mood and is symbiotic with your sense of wellbeing (or otherwise). Therefore it is not just the space that you're reserving touchy feely emotions for, but the sense of self you've associated with that place.
I'm drunk though, and everyone who knows me knows that J drunk means either total lucidity or utter bollocks...
which is it this time!?
I'm drunk though, and everyone who knows me knows that J drunk means either total lucidity or utter bollocks...
which is it this time!?
to the questions.
5 stops..this is hard...too many options
1. Invercargill, NZ. I've wanted to visit new zealand for long time and a very special person lives in that town.
2. India because it is such a facinating country
3. Sao Paulo, Brazil. I will go there one day
4. Iceland.I wanna go horse trekking in Iceland.
5. London. I think I would stop there to see all my lovely friends.
I dont know what to anwer the second question so I have to skip it..
I think I like all kind of trees, doesnt really matter which kind. they are all beautiful and good to have around.
Have a good weekend!!
ps. I'm not sure if I said this already but I like your website
masks.... remember that old saying about the wind changing and your face staying like that?
You become what you pretend to be.
5 stops. Sounds troublesome, but I get a whole year to do it? Much less of a problem!:
Syria and surrounds, particularly Petra
Uzbekestan: Tashkent (ancient samerkand)
China: quite enough to get along with there.
South east asia: already been to Thailand and Cambodia, but not nearly enough! Vietnam also figures high on my list.
South Sea Islands: I have months right? Well then I want to visit them all! Anthropologists paradise. Ok, so you might get your balls cut off by angry natives: Last frontier then. Excellent!
next question:
People's actions, body language and all that stuff is totally socially constructed. I don't think people inherit genetic body language, and if they do there's still considerable scope for social imprinting. Your relationship with your parents is still a social phenomenon, and their actions are socially constructed also. Anyone who tells you otherwise wants to believe it for some reason. We are all products of our time and environment. Any student of history knows that all too well.
Final question:
Japanese maples in all their shapes and forms.