Memorial for Daniel S. Frank 19/11/80 - 19/10/05
In the period following Dans death, time fell apart: hours crawled like weeks, days fell like minutes, and somewhere in this mist, I came across a poem. It helped somehow, and I have returned to it many times since. So I would like to share it with you, followed by a few memories...
On Death, Without Exaggeration...
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In the period following Dans death, time fell apart: hours crawled like weeks, days fell like minutes, and somewhere in this mist, I came across a poem. It helped somehow, and I have returned to it many times since. So I would like to share it with you, followed by a few memories...
On Death, Without Exaggeration...
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hotpinkauras:
I really enjoyed looking at your pics...u remind me of someone I know...you are very sexy 
jessickah:
Any saint would recognize this memorial. In such a state as to not know what to say, I wish to say everything... But then the failure arrives. Not that I think everyone who may understand something this deep and direct has to loose someone this close to them to "really know," but I do have to say that I too lost my best friend, although it was many years ago. Have you thought about polishing this and using it as a cornerstone for a published chapbook or anthology? Even as a piece of work that you may try to someday showcase in some kind of forwadness to the public? (Not that SG showcases it's girls and members to quite the WHOLE wide world...) But, what I am truly saying (in avoidance of turning this reply into a 400 page thesis), is that this is a fresh documentary filled by and created by an act of true art. A feeling of and through true art. People really FEEL that in a piece of literature, poetry, or whatever it may be. These things, if they get out there, will not go unheard. They just won't... And I apologize for bum-rushing your journal, but I stumbled in through one of the poetry groups. Write On!
my brain hurts.
my heart hurts too, but my brain really hurts.
i got my hair cut to provide greater ventilation,
but it still hurts.
it aches at the back.
it throbs at the front.
it pulsates in the middle
and at the top.
****
so i'm speaking at the tribute/memorialfor my friend who died a few months back. it worries me a little that...
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my heart hurts too, but my brain really hurts.
i got my hair cut to provide greater ventilation,
but it still hurts.
it aches at the back.
it throbs at the front.
it pulsates in the middle
and at the top.
****
so i'm speaking at the tribute/memorialfor my friend who died a few months back. it worries me a little that...
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marieceleste:
oh darlin'. you can't know what it will be like until you are there. all you need to know is what now is like, and when you speak at the memorial then you just have to be present with all your might.
kisses to your noggin, I know how it feels, mine is about the same. if only it would calm down then it might not hurt so. but i can't make it stop so for the moment i have given up trying.
kisses to your noggin, I know how it feels, mine is about the same. if only it would calm down then it might not hurt so. but i can't make it stop so for the moment i have given up trying.
hotpinkauras:
this made me sad, hon, try to think of positive things and ill send u a jolt of good cheer...u have incredible eyes I loovvee the PrincessBride 
I loovvee the PrincessBride Illness is more than this presocial actuality; it is not, in the words of Phil Brown a given biomedical fact but a set of understandings that are inconstant and socially constructed (1995:37). Thus, when the patient enters into the biomedical system - either through personal choice or in response to the social compulsion to adopt and accept the sick role, if categorized as necessary -...
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misslouise:
you know, it's surprising how many people I have come across who have only seen the film and not read the book! thats why I asked 
I read the book before I saw the film.
I love those films you remember from being little, and it's funny how when you grow up there are always ones that no-one has ever heard of except you and It's like it was a made up thing in your imagination..
I read the book before I saw the film.
I love those films you remember from being little, and it's funny how when you grow up there are always ones that no-one has ever heard of except you and It's like it was a made up thing in your imagination..
kitty76:
thank you darling for your support...much appreciate 
Defining Emptiness
Our conversation wore its holes
like the grandmothers crocheted shroud,
like the tired, old blanket that covered you
whenever you slept on our sofa.
Insubstantially, now, you fill these vacancies
in our communal fabric;
a vapour vital like the air in-between,
making holes whole,
emptiness defining.
You appear in memoriam,
firing in ethereally in that voice -
a reprimand of taste, an abusive...
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Our conversation wore its holes
like the grandmothers crocheted shroud,
like the tired, old blanket that covered you
whenever you slept on our sofa.
Insubstantially, now, you fill these vacancies
in our communal fabric;
a vapour vital like the air in-between,
making holes whole,
emptiness defining.
You appear in memoriam,
firing in ethereally in that voice -
a reprimand of taste, an abusive...
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hettie:
im a canon girl me,
although my current camera is a fuji finepix s7000!
although my current camera is a fuji finepix s7000!
yeoman:
thanks dude, same to you! 
from deepest, darkest wales,
in a house literally brimming with people,
i bid you a fond and fabulous
happy new motherfucking year!
may this one be better
because, frankly,
the last one really wasn't all that...
this year i will:
finish my MA
set in motion my travels
get back into the capoeira roda
see more masseurs/accupuncturists/etc.
take more photographs
write more
generally be more,...
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in a house literally brimming with people,
i bid you a fond and fabulous
happy new motherfucking year!
may this one be better
because, frankly,
the last one really wasn't all that...
this year i will:
finish my MA
set in motion my travels
get back into the capoeira roda
see more masseurs/accupuncturists/etc.
take more photographs
write more
generally be more,...
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snowballinhell:
Hello. My name is Michelle, but you knew that anyway silly boy 
This year, I have no expectations. Expectations and resolutions I have found just get shattered and I am fed up with the dejectedness that they bring. Whatever happens this year, will happen, and I shall just deal with each circumstance as it occurs.
There's lots of things I would like to do but time, money and personal circumstances will no doubt serve to hinder most of those plans
Happy New Year to you too sweetie, and I hope that 2006 brings you everything you want and more. And that we actually get to meet up in person next time I get to London
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
This year, I have no expectations. Expectations and resolutions I have found just get shattered and I am fed up with the dejectedness that they bring. Whatever happens this year, will happen, and I shall just deal with each circumstance as it occurs.
There's lots of things I would like to do but time, money and personal circumstances will no doubt serve to hinder most of those plans
Happy New Year to you too sweetie, and I hope that 2006 brings you everything you want and more. And that we actually get to meet up in person next time I get to London
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
anaphalaxis:
It's a deal!
Im reading some stuff that is messing with my head. With all thats been going on in my life over the last few months (friends dying, grandmothers losing the plot, lovers coming and going) perhaps Im just ripe for some head-fucking.
Please understand. This may sound like a cry for sympathy; like the railings of a self-piteous emotional masochist. But not so. Think more cocooned...
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Please understand. This may sound like a cry for sympathy; like the railings of a self-piteous emotional masochist. But not so. Think more cocooned...
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keturah:
i think there are actually 3 categories: mat, rug, and carpet
that at the store i didnt notice a couple items that seemed confused as to whether they were mats or rugs, as they were either large bath mats or small rugs. I think those crossover pieces where what made me think some further specification was neccesary.
this is no oversized bath mat, it is as long as i am tall (maybe a little over) and almost as wide.
for the record, i gave up on wrapping it, and said screw the surprise, your getting a damn rug, see it there by the tree
that at the store i didnt notice a couple items that seemed confused as to whether they were mats or rugs, as they were either large bath mats or small rugs. I think those crossover pieces where what made me think some further specification was neccesary.
this is no oversized bath mat, it is as long as i am tall (maybe a little over) and almost as wide.
for the record, i gave up on wrapping it, and said screw the surprise, your getting a damn rug, see it there by the tree
keturah:
ohh
and ho ho ho to you too
and ho ho ho to you too
I think I've related this one before, but the time has come to relate it (again).
The Life of Man in Four Days
a Tibetan Parable
Day One.
A certain man walks down a certain road. mindful of the beauty of his surroundings, he suddenly and without warning plummets down a large hole in the road. He grazes against the sides of the hole as...
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The Life of Man in Four Days
a Tibetan Parable
Day One.
A certain man walks down a certain road. mindful of the beauty of his surroundings, he suddenly and without warning plummets down a large hole in the road. He grazes against the sides of the hole as...
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qob:
sorry to hear that
sorry to hear that
teela:
rubbish! good luck on picking up the pieces. and enjoying the 3 and half months for what it was anyway, rather than what it failed to be [ie 7 months]. it's not a race or a contest, it's just living. live it up yo! go wild x
i have the eye.
and i must say that i am loving it.
i got all luvvy lately but got hit with a warning from an old friend-ish.
there's a cute girl opposite me in the library,
but will she look this way? like damn she will!
(but the one diagonally opposite is a whole different matter...)
q. what's that book that you keep thinking...
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and i must say that i am loving it.
i got all luvvy lately but got hit with a warning from an old friend-ish.
there's a cute girl opposite me in the library,
but will she look this way? like damn she will!
(but the one diagonally opposite is a whole different matter...)
q. what's that book that you keep thinking...
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snowballinhell:
You're welcome
and
You're welcome
Q1) If Life of Pi does that to you, have you read "Self" by Yann Martel? THAT is the book I just cannot get into at all. I have had it for over a year now and I think I have managed to read maybe 3 pages Maybe I've just been in the wrong frame of mind when attempting its pages, but I just can't see me ever getting anywhere with it at the moment.
Q2) Lip-biter and heavy breather
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
and
You're welcome
Q1) If Life of Pi does that to you, have you read "Self" by Yann Martel? THAT is the book I just cannot get into at all. I have had it for over a year now and I think I have managed to read maybe 3 pages
Maybe I've just been in the wrong frame of mind when attempting its pages, but I just can't see me ever getting anywhere with it at the moment.
Q2) Lip-biter and heavy breather
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
qob:
thank you for your lovely comments, made me feel better already
q1. at the moment it definetely is my accounting book and spanish book.lame i know but got the exams coming up
q2. lip biter for sure
q1. at the moment it definetely is my accounting book and spanish book.lame i know but got the exams coming up
q2. lip biter for sure
well, 26 is gently sidling towards me, trying not to make eye-contact to avoid suspicion, and so, rather than sort out something useful (of which there are so many that i should be doing), i though i'd offer you my rendition of:
the new this season's must haves:
sex. fucking is a funny old business (both literally and metaphorically). you go ages without any, deciding...
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the new this season's must haves:
sex. fucking is a funny old business (both literally and metaphorically). you go ages without any, deciding...
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anaphalaxis:
Happy birthday matey! We still need to actually hook up. I know it's possible!
anaphalaxis:
well where have you been!?
late night and early morning low clouds
with a chance of fog
chance of showers into the afternoon
with variable high cloudiness
and gusty winds, gusty winds
at times around the corner of
Sunset and Alvorado
things are tough all over
when the thunder storms start
increasing over the southeast
and south central portions
of my apartment, I get upset
and a line of thunderstorms...
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with a chance of fog
chance of showers into the afternoon
with variable high cloudiness
and gusty winds, gusty winds
at times around the corner of
Sunset and Alvorado
things are tough all over
when the thunder storms start
increasing over the southeast
and south central portions
of my apartment, I get upset
and a line of thunderstorms...
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snowballinhell:
You won a trip to Moscow?? 
Well done you 
Shame we never got the chance to get drunk together the other weekend
Love and kisses
Michelle xx
Well done you
Shame we never got the chance to get drunk together the other weekend
Love and kisses
Michelle xx