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saintadatha

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Saturday Jun 04, 2005

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you: how did the exams go?
me: they went...

**** **** **** ****

when things stack up it can feel like a pressure, a burden.
sometimes they stack up behind you, and then it feels like they're on top of you.

and then, when you remember, you breathe.

things that are stacked up, it turns out, are easily knocked down.
everything's perspective.
what felt like a labrynthine weight,
a forest of concern in which it was so easy to get lost,
becomes a game of dominoes.

not so easy, not so simple;
still dangerous, still wet with moments of fear;
but managable.

please breathe.

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body mods:
up to five holes now!

emotional mods:
one more heart-scar...

you know how some people cut themselves?
well cuts aren't always physical.

and yet, to quote a good friend:
only arseholes feel sorry for themselves.

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q.
how do you know whether you are attracted to someone because of who they are, or who they're not?

q.
is thinking so loud really so bad?

**** **** **** ****

the beard's back.
and the smile is also making more appearances.

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q.
what do you want to be when you grow up?

i want to be happy... so happy.
and i want to be wise.
i just don't want to be grown up. that's all.

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i need to buy some webspace.
for my professional email (freelance articles, academia, etc.),
my photographic portfolio,
my online cv,
and a general "find me" point.

saintadatha.com isn't really that memorable. or that pro.

any ideas?

**** **** **** ****

surreal
kiss
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snowballinhell:
Indeed, I bet you never thought I'd be this capable of having such profound thoughts tongue But I did tell you a while back that I'm a deep thinker wink

1) I totally agree there has to be some physical connection but in what aspect of physical are you talking about? Facial, figure, or both? Being someone who's not as aesthetically pleasing to the eye figure-wise, I'm always interested to know what goes on in the mind of someone of the opposite sex. I've had the smiles and eye catches from people when I've been in the car and then see the drop in expression when they've seen me outside of the car. It angers and saddens me more than feeling hurt, that someone can judge by what someone else looks like without even wanting to acknowledge what that person has been through first. By the way, this isn't geared towards a fight with you, it's not meant to anger, before I dig myself a big hole tongue They say that first impressions count and don't judge a book by its cover. True, but which is the first impression? The looks or the ability to communicate? And I agree with the book/cover aspect. A beautiful cover may hold nothing but blank pages whereas a torn, ripped and well used cover may hold a deeper more beautiful meaning inside.

You also say love is forever, but I would have to say that it depends on the sort of love. Unconditional to a partner/child, or the love of a friend. Personally, the only true love I have any more is reserved solely for my children, it's unconditional and no matter what they do in their lives as they develop, my love for them will always remain. The love I had for my partner however, well that isn't forever, I thought it was in the very beginning but things change, people change and love can die and not be forever in those instances. Maybe, reading that, I never truly found the love of my life despite thinking I had all those years ago as a naive teenager.

Sheesh, I do get myself into some complicated situations!

2) As children we are more open to suggestion simply because we know no different, and by growing up we do lose that innocence, mainly because we live in such a fucked up world now but also because we're almost programmed through the early years of the education system to fit in with the crowd and follow the leader, rather than following our own instincts and making our mark on society right from the beginning. Even at a very early age we have our own thoughts about whether we like something or not, it's what happens in our lives from then on in as to how those though thoughts progress into actions. It will be interesting to see whether my opinion on this matter changes once my own children start the long route of the education system this year wink

WoW! I think this has to be the longest journal reply I've ever done! Are you impressed considering it's after 11pm tongue

Love and kisses
Michelle xx

[Edited on Jun 08, 2005 11:28PM]
Jun 8, 2005
jazz:
how do you know whether you are attracted to someone because of who they are, or who they're not?
Its kind of one and the same. When you really think about it.
is thinking so loud really so bad? Nope not at all. Except in a library wink
what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'm never gonna grow up. But whatever takes my fancy at that moment.

MWAH!
Jazz
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Jun 8, 2005

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