saint1911

I am feeling a little better since my last post. Work has been hell so I haven't had too much time to think about life. Is it just me or does it seem like the days that are mentally trying leave you mose exhausted than physical work? I get my day off tomorrow so I get a chance to relax and unwind. as least as much as you can in a combat zone. There is no alcohol allowed here and there is always the chance of another attack but you would be suprised what you can get used to in a very short period of time. Anyway, I still am not sure I will ever meet that special someone but I suppose it doesn't really matter. Happiness is a choice just like anything else. It isn't what happens to you that defines sho you are. It is how you choose to react. I have for a long time let other people define me either through their opinions or by trying to change to make them happy. I have found my self in a lot of ways and I am tired of living to make everyone else happy or live up to their expectations. I am ready to live for me. When I find a women who can accept me for me and love that person, a woman who I feel a connection with somewhere outside of the bedroom, then my search is over. Until then, I am happy with my life.