Blah, so ive been trying to do better food and exercise wise for the past few weeks. All i have to show is 4 lousy lbs. Im so bummed. I need 50 off. I have to practically starve and workout like a madman to loose lots of wieght. I was only thin for like a year of my entire life,,,, but it was so awsome. I want to be like that again, to be able to go to any store i want and wear whatever i want. Im tired of wearing my husbands oversized t shirts. I wouldnt say ive ever felt pretty, probaly due to low self confidence, (thanks high school and lousy family for all those lovely comments you made over the years), but when i was thin i felt a lot better, like i was close to being pretty. Im so tired of those comments like you have a great personality or your beautiful on the inside. Thats just a way to tell a fat girl shes nice, but not attractive physically. I have no confidence and im meek, and i feel that it comes from wanting to hide my flaws. I may put on a tough girl front at work or in front of people i know, but im really not tough at all. I guess im just going to try to find a dr to give me some phentermine, cause im not over weight enough to qualify for weight loss surgery, trust me i checked. So feeling lonley bored and bloated here i sit wondering what to do with myself......... 
And once I get there we can practically starve and workout like madmen together..
It's always easier when you have a partner and support system.
We'll be that for each other!