Okay I realize I don't post much, and that this is going to sound odd in light of that but I had to share.
I came to an epiphany while driving back to Houston from Lafayette.
It started just by fantasising about sex with a particular friend of mine, but as it continued... I realized on top of something that I already knew (namely that I am kinky and a BDSM dominant so most of the fantasy revolved around the power exchange of her submitting to me and my taking advantage of that) But also I figured out the core of what I crave sexually.
See because no where in that fantasy was I even thinking about my own pleasure... I was entirely turned on by the orgasmic loss of control of my friend. The way she screamed and shook violently at her orgasm, how that settlled into the beginings of the next one time and time again. How those orgasms grew in intensity with each one, and how towards the end of it, you could hardly tell she was human anymore if you didn't look at her... just some raveing orgasming beast.
And that's when I realized that that is at the core my desire sexually. For whatever reason. Oh and sure I'd let her do the same to me in the manner of pleasuring me in return... but that wouldn't be a reward for me... it'd be a reward for my partner.
Of course since that realization I have been able to think of nothing else but doing that, even to the point that I'm willing to put aside my own no casual sex rule just to experiment with it.
Maybe I should just ammend my no casual sex rule to allow for oral and hand oriented entertainment... seeing as my number one reason for not having casual sex is AIDs. Alright twist my arm... ammended.
Now to find a woman or three who just need a good series of orgasms, prefferably one that doesn't mind a little, nay a lot of kink.
I came to an epiphany while driving back to Houston from Lafayette.
It started just by fantasising about sex with a particular friend of mine, but as it continued... I realized on top of something that I already knew (namely that I am kinky and a BDSM dominant so most of the fantasy revolved around the power exchange of her submitting to me and my taking advantage of that) But also I figured out the core of what I crave sexually.
See because no where in that fantasy was I even thinking about my own pleasure... I was entirely turned on by the orgasmic loss of control of my friend. The way she screamed and shook violently at her orgasm, how that settlled into the beginings of the next one time and time again. How those orgasms grew in intensity with each one, and how towards the end of it, you could hardly tell she was human anymore if you didn't look at her... just some raveing orgasming beast.
And that's when I realized that that is at the core my desire sexually. For whatever reason. Oh and sure I'd let her do the same to me in the manner of pleasuring me in return... but that wouldn't be a reward for me... it'd be a reward for my partner.
Of course since that realization I have been able to think of nothing else but doing that, even to the point that I'm willing to put aside my own no casual sex rule just to experiment with it.
Maybe I should just ammend my no casual sex rule to allow for oral and hand oriented entertainment... seeing as my number one reason for not having casual sex is AIDs. Alright twist my arm... ammended.
Now to find a woman or three who just need a good series of orgasms, prefferably one that doesn't mind a little, nay a lot of kink.
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