saida

Im bored with it all.. everything latley.. I could honestly care less about so many things and I dont think thats good. Cant you tell?

The thing is.. people like to think that if you dont care that you are "depressed" and always ask "whats wrong". Nothing is wrong.. shit haha, I dont mind being numb.. it helps me in my everyday stuggle for solitude.

I want to drift away on a sailboat in the sun.. with a big hat, a glass of wine and my journal. I want to write about every little insignificant thing that will prove to me once again that there is no such thing as "insignificant" things. If I grin for no reason, I will write about it. If my toe nail polish is chipped I will write about it. I will write to remenice, to forplay with my future and my presance will just exist as an imaginary friend looking in on her creator.

I want to be alone.. but i dont want you to leave me.. stay but dont get to close.. Im like a stray animal.. I will never be a house cat.. But I still need a home..