saida

I have to let go of a passion that I had and still is a part of me... I don't know how. I have moved on in my life but I know what I had was the most real thing that has ever existed. But it wasn't realistic. I moved on for the best of everyone and I am happy. Most of the time. I miss the taste of true everlasting passion. I think I will have this hole in me for the rest of my life. I knew the consiquences of moving on. I just thought I could let go easier than I can. What I had is what I wanted and needed but would never be. And what I have is what I want and what is right and I love it. I just want the hole filled with the passion again. It was the truth. I think I am in love with the idea of the passion and it is lacking in me right now so I am looking to the past and wanting what was unrealistic. I just want to feel that in my life again and be able to apply it. I want to live it. But I need to be realistic. I can't live in my dreams. But my dreams complete me.


she is tired now