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Tuesday Jul 19, 2011

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I gots da cancerz
Dermatofibrosarcoma Protuberans Incompetans (cancer)

Told you so.
From the age of 21 I visited 4 doctors complaining of an irritable inverted lump that seems to be manifesting just below my rib cage on the left handside. The last doctor decided to refer me on to a dermatologist, who then sent me for a biopsy... All of them said the operation was unessesary because, "it wont look very good on the beach". None of them suspected cancer. It had started to hurt and it's never nice to turn to your other half and say 'my lump hurts'. He was sick with worry.

4 years since my 1st doctors visit (march 12th 2011) I explained the feeling I had that it had a root. I had my biopsy. The biopsy results were revealed and I can't say I was surprised, I had already prepared myself, I had a funny feeling. One afternoon the surgeon contacted me, extremely excited at the find she went on to say that I was right to have it looked at, and yes it did have a root. It was like hanukkah and halloween and all come at once.

Tuesday 21st of June I was taken in for emergency surgery after the pains got worse, I have a 10 inch scar that seems to be heeling well. Other than that the hospital discharged me the next day with a letter to my 'family GP' who I've never heard of. I didn't need pain killers because I'm strong as a bull, however now it's getting tender. I can still do all the regular sky diving activities but just taking it easy. What do I do now? No one mentioned a word to me about the post operation surgery in hospital. I know they are busy people.

The only thing the nurse said was,
"Call me WHEN you need the bed pan." Degraded? Yes. First and last time? Yes!
No bed pan. Again. EVER.

She told me to wipe the slasher (wow that sounds absolutely horrible). I've got a giant slash across the torso, my bum is suspended by the meagre muscle of my back then I have to wipe?!?!??!?!?! Yes, I am strong, and now I'm strong, and violated... :

If I had one thing to say to anyone who has a 'feeling' go and get it checked out. Hmmm maybe it could be cancer? Maybe it could be AIDS? Or Parkinsons? Maybe it could be something that might be just a marginal hindrance to your life. If in doubt check it out and keep going. If you are from the US and have been diagnosed with cancer talk to Macmillan. They are incredible people and could possibly help you with financial concerns as well as support. When I hear anymore I'll keep you informed. Love and light to everyone out there.

Thank you to all staff at Broomfield Hospital, Essex. (even the grumpy lady, you know who you are).

Copy and paste the link below. I love life and find everything fascinating so I keep a lot of photos... add me if you can't see them, I have more going up soon with the last op. I asked the surgeon to take snaps of the op as well to see what the 'bad' cells look like. Hopefully he got them. smile http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.148429408553117.33643.100001581756488

IAnd now I've got a rash on my gash...
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Biopsy

Innyrd Skynyrd lol



And I made a cake..... Nothing to do with cancer just thought it looked cool,






The good news is, I've just had the all clear smile
VIEW 17 of 17 COMMENTS
user032823550:
stumbled across your birthday balloon so happy birthday smile
i also read your blog and hope you're feeling much much better, biggest congrats on your all clear. ive spent my fair share of time in hospital and although your scar's got a good five inches on mine i remember the immediate time after very well, and yes agreed, they do always tell you the best bits last, i did not have a bed pan but i did get woken up at 5am to be told "we've decided to take your drains out now, it'll feel a bit like we're pulling worms out of your body but it doesn't hurt that much... then you can go right back to sleep!" delightful. you sound like a fuckin trooper and for that go you.
as for the fucked up the beach thing? you'll still be the biggest hottie down skeggy next summer i'm sure wink
xx
Sep 26, 2011
evangelin:
Yes people care about you - Get used to it dollwinkkiss
Oct 13, 2011

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