safeshadows

So I was sitting here on a Saturday night contemplating the current status of my life and also signed onto aim (which I recently started signing onto again because of the guy I posted about previously). Anyways, he's online. (He was online last night but I ignored him). Only this whole thing is, the other night is bugging me and I really just want to talk to him about it and be like "hey buddy, we can't just hang out just because?". Sooo I was trying to figure out if I should IM him...and he IM'd me. Which he rarely does. But he's not dumb, he knows that I was annoyed by what he did and I haven't contacted him since. Whatever...I don't even know if I should ask him my questions or just let it go. And now that he's talking me...I don't want to talk to him anymore...he doesn't bring things up and I don't want to become one of those girls that brings thigs up but then at the same time I think I'm entitled to an aswer...go figure! I hated being alone and single and now I hate that there is a guy interested in what only seems to be my crotch.

On a side note, I have an appointment with the Athletics department at my school on Monday morning to see about interviewing to be added to their list to tutor the hot jocks! We'll see what happens. I'm also super excited because I'm going to check into taking dance classes. I've wanted to my entire life and my neighbor owns a dance studio and it's between my house and school. It's too perfect. Maybe I'll get a dancer's body one day! AND I've lost a little over 3 pounds since Wednesday! Woot!

*Edit*
So there was an awkward pause and I decided to not hold things back with this guy and just ask him so I did. Here's how it went:

Me: sooo...are we ever gonna hang out just because where nothing sexual has to be involved?
Him: doubt it
Him: idk i've been busy lately running around doing stuff, trying to get ajob
Me: you don't need to soften the blow...it's cool...i just needed to know
Him: well what do you want to know
Me: you just basically told me
Him: i was just joking
Him: are you asking me whats going on with this?
Me: yeah
Me: I just wanted to know if I let us go to far and became a new friend with benefits
Him: is that what you want to be
Me: nope
Him: lol
Him: honestly i think your a really cool girl and all but i dont see a future for us as a couple, but i'd still like to be friends with you
Him: at least not right now, i dont know what i really want right now
Me: ok, that's fine. You are fun. We can just be friends.
Me: but you should know that means no more sexual anything
Him: i'm fine with that