saentia

Seriously I have the most fucked up karma. I must have been Hitler in a past life or something. To explain:

So recently I met this lady online. Fancied her quite a bit and she me (so she says) we're talking non stop and so we decide to meet up (we're local to each other) for a "date".... Well me being my suave self I am horrible on first dates, not catastrophically bad but ya know nervous quiet and shy. Well she says she has a good time and would like to go out again so I think cool this has some potential low and behold we roll to the week after the "date" and she barely talks to me, everything she does say seems forced as if she's just trying to be nice and not completely ignore me. I just really fucking can't stand this and wanna say fuck it all and thats because:

Roll back a few months where I meet this girl online. We talk every fucking day for weeks before we decide to go on a first date. Well I'm not quite as inept but still not a total "pimp" but things to well and we fool around so I'm thinking score some "potential" and we talk about going out again later on. Week after the date she damn near completely stops talking to me only being cordial enough But this one goes on for a few weeks until I finally drag it out of her, she went on another date the day after ours and has been seeing him for the past few weeks hence the not talking to me. But hey let's be friends......fuck that.

So seriously how the fuck does this happen not once but fucking twice and back to back to boot......I know first dates are your "one chance" but how the fuck to you go to talking hours and hours beforehand and genuinely liking each other to not fucking talking after one awkward date.


I hate dating.......