sadie

So i moved into my studio and i feel that most people would be ecstatic and greatly appreciate something like this but i just seem to find everything bad about. I'm very lonely slowly trying to find ways to occupy my time. I'm poor yes very poor i starve alot and have been considering going to things like soup kitchens and stuff. life on disability isnt all its cracked up too. Right now i'm at my friends house watching cable tv things and activities like these do help keep content. i'm considering finding some sort of music program to enroll it to occupy and fullfill my life. if anyones out there any help is greatly apprecitated. i've been clean for about a week and plan to continue to live with out drugs but its hard cause i think about them everyday multiple times a day. i need more positive friends to fulfill. i dont think anyone can understand watch its like to sit for hours a day thinking of ways to escape this and what i mean by escape is suicide. i hope everyone is well