Abandon all hope.
I was up till 4 last night doing school work and Im still behind, not only that Im not even shore (<-I know thing is the wrong word I just cant spell) what I did made a difference. Im being far too distracted, I should remove all games from my computer (I just dont think Im morally strong enough).
If school dose not lighten up soon Im afraid I might give up, more of an involuntary reaction rather than a considered move. I have been told I was very stubborn, will I was as a kid but personally I see no evidence of it remaining. I would like to keep going, and cant think of any logical reason other than my self loathing suspicions that Im not up to a passing standard.
I hate this feeling of despair, more powerful than my natural hate of all things around me. I remember I had the same thing last year of high school and first year of university. The feeling that I have never had to do any work till this point telling myself that every thing before this came naturally and this is the first time I have ever had some thing beyond me that I really had to learn. It feels more powerful this time and its not so much about a lack of knowledge but rather an inability of doing my work, Im just not motivated to do it.
I was up till 4 last night doing school work and Im still behind, not only that Im not even shore (<-I know thing is the wrong word I just cant spell) what I did made a difference. Im being far too distracted, I should remove all games from my computer (I just dont think Im morally strong enough).
If school dose not lighten up soon Im afraid I might give up, more of an involuntary reaction rather than a considered move. I have been told I was very stubborn, will I was as a kid but personally I see no evidence of it remaining. I would like to keep going, and cant think of any logical reason other than my self loathing suspicions that Im not up to a passing standard.
I hate this feeling of despair, more powerful than my natural hate of all things around me. I remember I had the same thing last year of high school and first year of university. The feeling that I have never had to do any work till this point telling myself that every thing before this came naturally and this is the first time I have ever had some thing beyond me that I really had to learn. It feels more powerful this time and its not so much about a lack of knowledge but rather an inability of doing my work, Im just not motivated to do it.
kiwimalice:
time to update your journal man HAHAHA ; P