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happee valentine's day indeed

yesterday sucked!
and it's not because i didn't have love, or roses or any of that commercial shit... it was because for hours i had to watch helplessly as my chameleon died...

my Connor is dead...i had him for four years, he was my little buddy and there was nothing i could do for him...

...i LOVE my best friend Terra...she is the best person in the world and i adore her soooo much! she is the sweetest girl...i am so lucky to have someone who cares aboot me soooo muchand supports me in anything i do...i wish one of us was a guy, then it would be perfect...
i am going to bury connor today, in the yard of the new house i will be moving into...my friend sara is going to help me build a little coffin...

...today i'm not okay...

i hate valentines day...i will hate it forever now...

Sinn


edited to say...aanya spent the weekend with me, and i was a grump ass...i am sorry!
*T*i love you very much, we have been friends for a long time, i am sorry if i made you feel bad! please forgive me... i don't want you to think i don't appreciate you or everything you do for me! you are one of my very best friends and i wouldn't be the me i am now if it wasn't for you! thank you for being you...*M*