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There are times that I really want to believe in love
That faithfulness can actually exist
That you can relax your guard
And actually trust in someone

I find myself asking
If hope in the future
Can replace survival instincts,
If happiness is something
Other than the euphoria created
By large quantities of chocolate

I laugh, I play
I trust in those
Who have proved themselves trustworthy?

How then, do I allow
Someone new into that fold?
How do I put out of my mind
All that I have experienced before with others?
How do I allow myself to believe in someone
When the little voice in my mind is telling me that you cannot?

Perhaps it is my fate
To go through life alone
Aside from friends and occasional acquaintances
To forever be a solitary creature.

All of these things
Circle in my mind
But still
There is hope.