sabine

tomorrow after class i'm meeting with a professor i had last semester about working in her lab next year. (by working i mean getting research experience and credit but no pay).

it's an emotion research lab. subjects are hooked up to MRI & EEG among other things to test how the brain responds during an emotion. i had this professor for a class on emotion and i really enjoyed the class as well as having her for a teacher. it sounds like a great opportunity for me as a psychology major.

of course there's still a small part of my brain that's set up for self-defeat. it tells me, among other things, that i'm just not capable and shouldn't try things. (because of this part of my brain i've never really challenged myself). emailing the prof about this offer took a lot of courage for me. i'm so afraid to try things. but i'm tired of being afraid. how will i accomplish anything if i never try because i fear i'm not capable?

fuck that. it's true you can't fail if you never try...but you can't go anywhere either. i'm hoping taking this step will help me take other steps toward a productive future...