today has been such a waste.
and now i remember why i dont force myself to get up at 6:30 am anymore. it's just inhumane. ive always thought that "good morning" is a contradiction, and it makes me want to kick someone. not necessarily the person saying the greeting, he/she has good intentions. maybe the person driving really slowly in front of me.
im thinking about going to therapy. it couldnt hurt, right? there are some things i havent even talked to my closest people about. it's not a matter of trust. i just know i wont be able to believe them when they tell me nothing was my fault.
as a few of you know i just got my nipples pierced the other day. they hurt a lot today. the recommended attire, a sports bra, was a very bad idea, i learned. i can deal with a regular cotton bra, though now i can only wear black or else you can see right through my shirt and it looks like i have four nipples (the regular two and the two little beads on the rings). i think she gave me the biggest rings. ive heard i have big nipples. =P but anyway, i think it looks great, and i can see how it will be fun when they stop hurting. i started soaking them in sea-salty water which is recommended for quicker healing. though i feel really funny sitting there for 15 minutes with my boob in a cup. ive probably done stranger things while alone in my room. hehe
ive been getting a lot of reading done. im working on survivor. popular around this site for obvious reasons. i had ordered it and lullabye, the only two of palahnuik's i hadnt read. then i looked at mitten's survivor set and thought it was really cool that that's where "suicide girls" came from. he's from portland too. i wish i was there. =)
i got some pictures taken this weekend. i hope to get something sent in soon. even though i hear it could be a long ass time before i see any results. that's if i'm accepted. i dont see why they would reject naked pics from a purple haired pierced girl. but we'll see. =)
well that's enough of my exciting life...
g'nite
and now i remember why i dont force myself to get up at 6:30 am anymore. it's just inhumane. ive always thought that "good morning" is a contradiction, and it makes me want to kick someone. not necessarily the person saying the greeting, he/she has good intentions. maybe the person driving really slowly in front of me.
im thinking about going to therapy. it couldnt hurt, right? there are some things i havent even talked to my closest people about. it's not a matter of trust. i just know i wont be able to believe them when they tell me nothing was my fault.
as a few of you know i just got my nipples pierced the other day. they hurt a lot today. the recommended attire, a sports bra, was a very bad idea, i learned. i can deal with a regular cotton bra, though now i can only wear black or else you can see right through my shirt and it looks like i have four nipples (the regular two and the two little beads on the rings). i think she gave me the biggest rings. ive heard i have big nipples. =P but anyway, i think it looks great, and i can see how it will be fun when they stop hurting. i started soaking them in sea-salty water which is recommended for quicker healing. though i feel really funny sitting there for 15 minutes with my boob in a cup. ive probably done stranger things while alone in my room. hehe
ive been getting a lot of reading done. im working on survivor. popular around this site for obvious reasons. i had ordered it and lullabye, the only two of palahnuik's i hadnt read. then i looked at mitten's survivor set and thought it was really cool that that's where "suicide girls" came from. he's from portland too. i wish i was there. =)
i got some pictures taken this weekend. i hope to get something sent in soon. even though i hear it could be a long ass time before i see any results. that's if i'm accepted. i dont see why they would reject naked pics from a purple haired pierced girl. but we'll see. =)
well that's enough of my exciting life...
g'nite
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You'd be a great SuicideGirl. I worry I'm not "alternative" enough. I sent them a picture a month or two ago...I might send them another with my new hair (it was a fairly natural-looking red before).
Re: your note--Cuddling and Monty Python would be fantastic. Your state or mine?
Don't worry they will stop hurting pretty soon.. it takes about a week before they stop hurting and then probably about a month before you can just not be reminded of them everytime you move.. hehe.. ehh its all worth it. I might be going through it again to get the other one done. All my friends laughed at me when i would have a cup of salt water stuck to my chest.. i looked like such a dumbass.. ohh well.. i do most of the time anyway.