sabine

i realized i've been living in michigan for a year now and i still don't feel like it's "home." here i have school, a job, a (nonexclusive) boy, a group of friends. still it feels like something's missing. well one main thing really is missing. my sister. she's still in alabama, but i'm working on convincing her to move up here. she's lonely there & we'd have so much fun together. only she likes the school there, the one i went to before, so i guess i'll at least have to wait until she's through with that. we talk every day, but it's just not the same as those delirious hours of sleepiness when we laughed together at everything though nothing was making sense. here it's a little lonely... and maybe i'm just a southern girl. heh
i've never been part of an online community before. usually i feel like i have nothing to say so i dont post anything. i'm going to start trying though. the girls & members, for the most part seem cool & sweet. it couldnt hurt. see, i'm at least writing in my journal. it's a start. =)
i want to send in a picture, but every weekend when i see my nonexclusive boy with the expensive digital camera, we forget. i dont know if i really have a chance. the girls are all so beautiful, and i haven't been around long, but again, i figured, it wouldn't hurt to try. it's wierd. i'm not into porn. this site seems a lot different. more creative, not sleazy. & i just think it'd be fun.
i have more studying to do for calculus. i happily discovered tonight when reviewing my notes that i wasn't quite as lost as i thought. so maybe there's a chance.

goodnite.