sometimes...most of the time...i feel like life is just passing me by. i mean, i know, who really seizes the fucking day, right? i've known maybe two people who really live their lives like that. and maybe stormy. heh, yeah she seems to.
but it's not just the lack of excitement. i'm not progressing. i'm not learning. i'm not accomplishing anything except sleeping a ton and doing what i have to for work (which isn't much). when you only work 12-19 hours a week (and less this week as we don't run experiments over spring break), you have an assload of free time on your hands. i use this time very, very poorly. i haven't even started studying for the GRE. i haven't even finished a book in months.
i'm getting restless. some friends from alabama were supposed to visit and we were going to get a bunch of people and go to toronto or something. i was really looking forward to getting out of town. i just need that every now and then. it looks like they aren't coming though i haven't really gotten a straight answer yet, i'm guessing no. i still want to get out of here but i suck at planning things so none of my ideas ever work out.
i just feel stuck sometimes. it's just this lack of motivation that makes it hard to do anything. *sigh*
but it's not just the lack of excitement. i'm not progressing. i'm not learning. i'm not accomplishing anything except sleeping a ton and doing what i have to for work (which isn't much). when you only work 12-19 hours a week (and less this week as we don't run experiments over spring break), you have an assload of free time on your hands. i use this time very, very poorly. i haven't even started studying for the GRE. i haven't even finished a book in months.
i'm getting restless. some friends from alabama were supposed to visit and we were going to get a bunch of people and go to toronto or something. i was really looking forward to getting out of town. i just need that every now and then. it looks like they aren't coming though i haven't really gotten a straight answer yet, i'm guessing no. i still want to get out of here but i suck at planning things so none of my ideas ever work out.
i just feel stuck sometimes. it's just this lack of motivation that makes it hard to do anything. *sigh*
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ninedayjane:
*hugs*
lostidentity:
There are many reasons why you are one of my favorites. Honesty and integrity are two of them. The fact that I'm in the exact same position as you, makes it three. I haven't found a solution yet to the problem but I'd love to hear any suggestions you may have. 