ryotgirl

"sink your teeth into delicate skin. armor that hides your thoughts for this eternity. a clean break that will never heal. is this the pain that was felt everyday? fuck you. things will never change. is this the pain that ws felt everyday? so fuck you, you'll never change, never change! now we both bleed, now we both die. now we both lose inside. now we both lose. we've been here forty times and still we lose forty one times. we all lose in the end. I'll forget this, i'll forget you, i'll forget everyone. i'll forget the love letters YOU NEVER FUCKING WROTE. is this the pain?! so where is the pain? so bring the pain. i sweated blood for you.....time to rise"

Yeah, so im fucking retarded. and im sad cuz my HSLP caled me dumb, but whatever thats what i get....got off work early today and now i have tomorrow off and thursday i come in late cuz i gotta go see the doc. the stupid ex man is coming home tomorrow and wants to see me but he gets nothing.

I hope this year I do better for myself...i guess im not starting off too well since i broke my 2yr sobriety...yeah, it was stupid and not even fun so i guess i wont be doing it anymore...plus it made jenn cry and i dont want her to cry.

But seriously, i hope things go better this year. i need to be careful of the people i surround myself with. I have to go to court soon, to testify against that one guy....but after that, i think my stress level will go down a little bit....i hope.

well, hope all is well with everyone else!