Like I said..."Its been forever since I've been out his late with you" and she told me then "I'll always be around, wherever. you know that"
and my heart melted a little bit more.
I'm such a sap sometimes, but it was one of those moments. Where "nothing" happened, because nothing is ever going to happen between us. but did I wish it had? A...
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and my heart melted a little bit more.
I'm such a sap sometimes, but it was one of those moments. Where "nothing" happened, because nothing is ever going to happen between us. but did I wish it had? A...
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hello...
my head hurts bad today and they're digging up the road outside my house, which isn't helping any.
But it's all in a good cause: I went to see Cursive play in glasgow last night and they were sooo good, even though there were only about 12 people there. they went a bit Mogwai at the end, all helicopter noises, which was really good,...
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my head hurts bad today and they're digging up the road outside my house, which isn't helping any.
But it's all in a good cause: I went to see Cursive play in glasgow last night and they were sooo good, even though there were only about 12 people there. they went a bit Mogwai at the end, all helicopter noises, which was really good,...
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llona:
Early summer has the same effect on me, and it's wonderful and crazy and I never want it to end. Crushes are the best, and being a little hot and sweaty and free just makes them more intense and frequent.
I've heard that during summer in scotland it's light out until like 11pm. I love really long days, when it just sort of hovers around dusk for hours.
What kind of art do you do?
xo
I've heard that during summer in scotland it's light out until like 11pm. I love really long days, when it just sort of hovers around dusk for hours.
What kind of art do you do?
xo
tarbaby:
this weather is making me impossibly lazy. i've been neglecting all of the things that i should be doing. sunshine and chores don't mix. horrible too,as i have a big weekend ahead of me-too many things going on and odds are i won't do any of them....
hey, how are you?
today is one of those rare summer days that make everything seem so much clearer. I know nothing much has changed really, and its me that needs to do most of the changing at some point (see the list of to-do things pinned to my door right now), but right now I just want to walk along the street holding hands...
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today is one of those rare summer days that make everything seem so much clearer. I know nothing much has changed really, and its me that needs to do most of the changing at some point (see the list of to-do things pinned to my door right now), but right now I just want to walk along the street holding hands...
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onefoolishline:
yes, i'm leaving...but soon to be seen in a country near you. 
you've just described my mood.
you've just described my mood.
the anniversary of something.
"In pitch dark
I go walking in your landscape
Broken branches trip me as I speak
just because you feel it
doesn't mean its there.
there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck
"Steer away from these rocks
we'd be a walking disaster"
why so green and lonely?
Heaven sent you to me.
we are accidents
waiting
waiting to happen."
I...
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"In pitch dark
I go walking in your landscape
Broken branches trip me as I speak
just because you feel it
doesn't mean its there.
there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck
"Steer away from these rocks
we'd be a walking disaster"
why so green and lonely?
Heaven sent you to me.
we are accidents
waiting
waiting to happen."
I...
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minimalism:
Most things in life have a purpose, beyond what we can see at the time. One of the best things that ever happened to me was my first true love and I spilting up. I spent nearly a year sorting through every detail of that relationship trying to surmise what went wrong. In the end it forced me to grow in ways I never expected. I have come to accept there are things beyond our control no matter how hard we try. You can be the perfect gentleman to your partner Treat them well, never neglect them, or hurt them, and yet there may still be a need to them to see other people. It's through no fault of you own or theirs. It just happenes. I think it's somhow better to just deal with the pain, the loss, and use it as a learning experience. Keep it positive.
_lauren_:
yeah i saw it.
i fucking LOVE csi so bad.
i fucking LOVE csi so bad.
thought for the day:
"Yellowed, creased and crumpled faces still smile
Snap-shot begging "Please don't forget me"
Seems like everybody's got a set of good old days they like to remember themselves back into when their current state is lacking some way.
Mean sweet and empty all my teeth are singing...
"Sugar, come back down to the cavity"
Buckle in, settle down. You've got a...
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"Yellowed, creased and crumpled faces still smile
Snap-shot begging "Please don't forget me"
Seems like everybody's got a set of good old days they like to remember themselves back into when their current state is lacking some way.
Mean sweet and empty all my teeth are singing...
"Sugar, come back down to the cavity"
Buckle in, settle down. You've got a...
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ophelia:
I found it so weird in college when everyone started getting engaged. I know that very few of them probably lasted, but I was 17 and wondering if I was going to be left on the shelf when no one wanted to marry me. I've decided now that if I reach 30 and still no one's asked me then I'll allow myself to worry a bit, until then no.
It was coming off my antidepressants that made everything go all weird and made me gain weight. I know that if I go back to the doctor's they'll be all pissed off because I didn't reduce my dosage like I was meant to, and just went off cold turkey, so I'm trying to avoid them as much as possible for now.
It was coming off my antidepressants that made everything go all weird and made me gain weight. I know that if I go back to the doctor's they'll be all pissed off because I didn't reduce my dosage like I was meant to, and just went off cold turkey, so I'm trying to avoid them as much as possible for now.
tarbaby:
i'm not good with change-i'm a creature of habit. when people leave my life it really affects me and i never seem able to get over it. i still dream of friends i haven't seen in years. i thought of you today as i was writing my journal....oxoxox
Things are better today, and I realise that there's no sense in worrying about what is going to happen or what has happened. the happypositivedme keeps reminding me that my life is what I make of it, everything else is just rumour and gossip, but the meannegativepessimisticme is always there to laugh at me for being so naive and foolish.
The one that is winning...
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The one that is winning...
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elisabeth:
Thank you for the kind wishes. It sounds like you've got a good dose of clarity to work with. Let it flow....
cherry:
Hey, I don't see you as commenting because you haven't spoken to me as stalkerish
Wow, I haven't heard any sparklehorse in a long time
Cherry xox
Wow, I haven't heard any sparklehorse in a long time
Cherry xox
you know its bad when you start identifying with Avril Lavigne songs...
Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but...
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Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but...
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ophelia:
I'm doing a BA in English Lit and Linguistics. I'm going into my final year come September, which is kind of cool. but at the same time scares the crap out of me, seeing as afterwards it means that I'll have to do something useful with my life. I'm seriously tempted to move back to West Sussex since I *know* that I can get a decent job there just by having a degree in anything.
So long as you don't feel like you relate to Sk8ter Boi then it's all good. If you did, I'd definitely have to throttle you
So long as you don't feel like you relate to Sk8ter Boi then it's all good. If you did, I'd definitely have to throttle you
minimalism:
Please forgive the head bobble. I know it's a little strange. Don't be afraid to admit you like David Gary. He's amazing.
Its another weird one, and I'm just a little drunk so i probably shouldn't be writing this. Please don't judge me because I'm a drunk and an idiot.
the things that have happened this week make me wonder what the hell I'm doing. Llona was talking about a "cosmic smackdown" and I guess if one exists I'm in the middle of it right now. Or...
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the things that have happened this week make me wonder what the hell I'm doing. Llona was talking about a "cosmic smackdown" and I guess if one exists I'm in the middle of it right now. Or...
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clara:
Baltimore is a very fun place to live. It's just dirty enough to not be too dirty. If that makes any sense at all. I frequently do wear that lampshade on my head for some reason. I'm delusional enough to believe that it really looks like a hat, but not enough to wear it outside the house.
llona:
Somebody was posting in my journal and said that if I have any sag friends, I should be a good friend to them and give them a helmet.
Dancing in your underwear to ABBA never hurt anyone.
Re: exes sending letters saying they still love you: don't buy it. Emotional manipulation is the name of that game. I know because I play it all the time.
xo
Dancing in your underwear to ABBA never hurt anyone.
Re: exes sending letters saying they still love you: don't buy it. Emotional manipulation is the name of that game. I know because I play it all the time.
xo
hello again..
its been a while, and I've got so much to tell so I know that this is gonna end up short (because I will keep forgetting everything I meant to say). The weekend was great, a little confusing, but great. I kissed the girl I should have kissed a long time ago, and it was lovely. I stayed the night at her house...
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its been a while, and I've got so much to tell so I know that this is gonna end up short (because I will keep forgetting everything I meant to say). The weekend was great, a little confusing, but great. I kissed the girl I should have kissed a long time ago, and it was lovely. I stayed the night at her house...
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clara:
Lives at the other end of the country? Damn. 
llona:
I wish you could come and go shopping with me.....I need a good shopping partner.
Wow. Have fun at the wedding. That sounds so beautiful.
There's a soft spot in my heart for hopeless romantics.
xo
Wow. Have fun at the wedding. That sounds so beautiful.
There's a soft spot in my heart for hopeless romantics.
xo
I finally catch up with myself...
Its been a good night and now I'm a little drunk and tired and my bed is looking so appealing right now, but too empty. You know that feeling? I realised the other week that I keep one side of it covered in crap just so it doesn't feel empty when i'm sleeping. It would be too much space,...
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Its been a good night and now I'm a little drunk and tired and my bed is looking so appealing right now, but too empty. You know that feeling? I realised the other week that I keep one side of it covered in crap just so it doesn't feel empty when i'm sleeping. It would be too much space,...
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ophelia:
I sleep with 2 duvets, 5 pillows and a teddy bear now. If I get myself wrapped up enough then I can try to forget that I have to sleep alone.
A hug is better than nothing
A hug is better than nothing
clara:
You need a snuggly pet. One of my kitties sleeps under the covers with me.
today on the bus, i caught myself remembering the chokecherry bushes that grew in my back yard. i tried to remember their exact taste, bitter yet smooth and sweet. addictive.
this all remembed me of the crabapples, the violet bush, the wild strawberries. the exact place i put my feet in the grass. the cartwheels and the tire swings.
the clean air and breathing heaven and exhaling the sun.
i often catch myself trying to remember the exact and smallest detail.
the heart melts like rain into these crevices, sinking on the brow, trickling to the eyelash, and the cheek, stained tears.
~heather