"we can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor pefect it in our lives to come...."
Milan Kundera
I spent today making plans near and far, booking flights (to Germany and London) and trying to catch up with all the people I've let slip a little bit recently, trying to figure out...
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Milan Kundera
I spent today making plans near and far, booking flights (to Germany and London) and trying to catch up with all the people I've let slip a little bit recently, trying to figure out...
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New photo time.
It's taken me only about three days (of tears and begging) to figure out how to do it, photoshop dunce that I am and it feels a bit strange being able to see my face properly, out there for people to recognise or not. Does it change the way this works - always hiding behind this vague anonymity and bad photography?
Hell,...
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It's taken me only about three days (of tears and begging) to figure out how to do it, photoshop dunce that I am and it feels a bit strange being able to see my face properly, out there for people to recognise or not. Does it change the way this works - always hiding behind this vague anonymity and bad photography?
Hell,...
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llona:
i'm going to new york just for fun.
i'll hide you in my suitcase and you can come along.
have you ever been?
that picture of you makes me die.
xo
i'll hide you in my suitcase and you can come along.
have you ever been?
that picture of you makes me die.
xo
llona:
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 12:34AM]
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 12:34AM]
I took a random day trip yesterday, just to get out of the city for a couple of hours, escape just a little bit. In my wisdom I got on a train to a small and wet seaside town half an hour up the coast, shivered my way along the beach, took some photos of crumbling seaside buildings, ate some (pretty damn good) fish and...
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llona:
*sigh* that sounds amazing. you're lucky to be able to hop a train and get somewhere like that in such a short time. i could head out to the countryside in my car, but the ocean is a few hours away and filled with redneck tourists.
i find that i'm desperate to be in my kitchen cooking when the seasons change. fall is one of my favorites, the heat of the kitchen doesn't bother me and all of the seasonal foods are rich and comforting. i like christmas baking, too.
xo
i find that i'm desperate to be in my kitchen cooking when the seasons change. fall is one of my favorites, the heat of the kitchen doesn't bother me and all of the seasonal foods are rich and comforting. i like christmas baking, too.
xo
llona:
i'm lucky in the fact that my bitterness usually doesn't settle. i've had a happy week: dinners out, cocktails with my favorite girls, my father's wedding yesterday.
i've had plenty of earl grey and good books to distract me as well.
and new york is soon- just a few weeks away.
i've had plenty of earl grey and good books to distract me as well.
and new york is soon- just a few weeks away.
There has to be an end to this hangover. It just can't go on like this (please.....)
It's been a weird week, but then I seem to be having a lot of those recently. My two best friends both left the country (one leaving Edinburgh for good) in the middle of the week, so I've been wandering round feeling just a little bit lost. It's...
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It's been a weird week, but then I seem to be having a lot of those recently. My two best friends both left the country (one leaving Edinburgh for good) in the middle of the week, so I've been wandering round feeling just a little bit lost. It's...
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llona:
god, i have the worst hangover today as well. bleh.
i'm so sorry your friends are gone. i hope you'll find some pleasant distractions, though that sounds like i'm making light of it.
i found an absolutely gorgeous black boucle vintage coat at the goodwill for 5$. i think that's a good omen for your coat wishes.
love.
i'm so sorry your friends are gone. i hope you'll find some pleasant distractions, though that sounds like i'm making light of it.
i found an absolutely gorgeous black boucle vintage coat at the goodwill for 5$. i think that's a good omen for your coat wishes.
love.
Some Notes on Strangeness:
That time of year again, the creeping inescapable sense of everything changing and shifting; each morning waking up and standing at the usual bus stop and shivering a little more. The days are still warm, glorious even, but the mornings and nights are cold, a little bitter even. I'm counting the days until I need to go scarf shopping, the prospect...
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That time of year again, the creeping inescapable sense of everything changing and shifting; each morning waking up and standing at the usual bus stop and shivering a little more. The days are still warm, glorious even, but the mornings and nights are cold, a little bitter even. I'm counting the days until I need to go scarf shopping, the prospect...
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llona:
i've missed you so much. i'm glad for the recent entry, just to get some sense of how you've been.
i didn't buy the coat. no money. i've decided that my green one will just have to do. it has cute emerald colored square buttons, and a charming ladylike shape to it. it's not the red cashmere, but oh well. scarves and gloves will tide me over. i bought a pair of elbow length, raspberry colored gloves that are too, too perfect.
i hope things are good with you, wish i'd been the one ballroom dancing with you.
xoxo
i didn't buy the coat. no money. i've decided that my green one will just have to do. it has cute emerald colored square buttons, and a charming ladylike shape to it. it's not the red cashmere, but oh well. scarves and gloves will tide me over. i bought a pair of elbow length, raspberry colored gloves that are too, too perfect.
i hope things are good with you, wish i'd been the one ballroom dancing with you.
xoxo
llona:
you must come to the states. you know that, right?
and you have double incentive because Jem and I are both in Atlanta.
i'll take you dancing and we can sit on my porch and drink tea.
and you have double incentive because Jem and I are both in Atlanta.
i'll take you dancing and we can sit on my porch and drink tea.
I went away kind of hoping it would all work itself out, and I guess it has in a fashion...
the certainty of uncertainty. LIke having plans made and ready for the weekend and her walking away from them just like that, and telling you its not your fault.
But it is really. You both understand that now, and to some far-imagined extent, it doesn't...
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the certainty of uncertainty. LIke having plans made and ready for the weekend and her walking away from them just like that, and telling you its not your fault.
But it is really. You both understand that now, and to some far-imagined extent, it doesn't...
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llona:
maybe sometime i can meet you in London........that would be so fun.
llona:
where did you go?
come back to us.
come back to us.
"the idea of a rectangle exists only as an idea, which is easy for rectangles and difficult for most ideas"
- Donald Judd
I've been so quiet because I've barely been keeping up with myself, let alone managing to find some way to pin it down and make a little sense of it. Damit, I want everything (or at least something) in this here life...
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- Donald Judd
I've been so quiet because I've barely been keeping up with myself, let alone managing to find some way to pin it down and make a little sense of it. Damit, I want everything (or at least something) in this here life...
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llona:
thank you, i hope you're doing well too.
xo
xo
llona:
i watched 'sweet sixteen' last night and thought of you. i wondered if you speak in that way that is so cute and soft around the edges. *sigh*
hope you are well, love.
xo
hope you are well, love.
xo
I spent today sitting in bed with my friend, making origami boxes and listening to radio four, and that made me so happy for some reason....*
and "lost in translation" is the most perfect film. or a perfect as I want anything to be.
and that's all for the moment.
xxx r
(*actually, the reason is that she's the sweetest, loveliest, smiliest person....)
and "lost in translation" is the most perfect film. or a perfect as I want anything to be.
and that's all for the moment.
xxx r
(*actually, the reason is that she's the sweetest, loveliest, smiliest person....)
reinhardt:
tell me gordon matta-clark stories!
now playing; "Excuse me while I break my own heart tonight...." Whiskeytown
(It's more beautiful than it sounds, trust me.)
so this is 2004 then?
and this was everything I've wanted, forever, but something's not sitting right. Dislocation and the ache of wanting to be with someone too much, the bruises you left here. God, I wish you were close to me, and I wish...
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(It's more beautiful than it sounds, trust me.)
so this is 2004 then?
and this was everything I've wanted, forever, but something's not sitting right. Dislocation and the ache of wanting to be with someone too much, the bruises you left here. God, I wish you were close to me, and I wish...
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salome_seule:
the roadtrip is nowhere near finished. god, the thing i hate about living as a gypsy is that i'm always losing my socks, of all things. not underwear or tank tops (both easy to lose, especially with my lifestyle), just always my god damned socks. how bizarre. tonight i'm back in los angeles, after a week in santa barbara. tomorrow, i fly away again. still 2 weeks before i go home. i will miss my gorgeous dogs.
new years resolutions:
1. watch my socks!
2. lose 10 lbs.
3. be faithful to my loving, devoted boyfriend.
4. get A's in all my classes.
5. spend less money.
6. spend less money on drugs.
7. spend less money on drugs that i end up sharing or giving away to friends.
8. spend more time on my art, and less time drunk.
9. quit smoking. dammit.
hmmm, i may cutxpaste this for my journal. but, you were the first to see it, so feel special...
new years resolutions:
1. watch my socks!
2. lose 10 lbs.
3. be faithful to my loving, devoted boyfriend.
4. get A's in all my classes.
5. spend less money.
6. spend less money on drugs.
7. spend less money on drugs that i end up sharing or giving away to friends.
8. spend more time on my art, and less time drunk.
9. quit smoking. dammit.
hmmm, i may cutxpaste this for my journal. but, you were the first to see it, so feel special...
llona:
Aw. I love that you read Bust and Bitch.
that's cute!
hopefully i'll have some gossip for you soon.
xoxo
that's cute!
hopefully i'll have some gossip for you soon.
xoxo
A train across the country, back to the city after a couple of stolen days at home. Only half-sleeping; half listening to the sweet couple in the seats in front of me, talking about their yesterday and half staring out the window at the twilight trees and fields, cliffs and sea.
Moments like these when you pass unseen through little fragments of other people's lives;...
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bluechild:
well im an architect and LOVE art, thats what i studied in university and thats what i graduated as.
Alvar Aalto is one of the best architects ever, him and Luis Barragan. you have good taste in architects
Alvar Aalto is one of the best architects ever, him and Luis Barragan. you have good taste in architects
bluechild:
just came in to wish you a great new year 2004
xo