I'm off home, so this is going to be the last you'll here from me (for about a week.) As loving and lliberal as my parents are, I'm not sure how they'd feel about me posting on an "Adult" site.
actually, what I'm kinda freaked out about is the thought of my dad getting really into this too (or my mum). And that's something no boy should ever have to consider...
And then I'm off to London (via Brighton) for my holiday proper; a long weekend of visiting friends, someone I half-loved a little while ago, shopping and galleries. A chance to come up for air and escape from edinburgh when it's getting all a little claustrophobic...
There's so much I want to tell you about, I could sit here forever but I'm sleepy and my train is too early. I'm gonna miss you.
lots
xxx r
ps hope the summers being good to you
actually, what I'm kinda freaked out about is the thought of my dad getting really into this too (or my mum). And that's something no boy should ever have to consider...
And then I'm off to London (via Brighton) for my holiday proper; a long weekend of visiting friends, someone I half-loved a little while ago, shopping and galleries. A chance to come up for air and escape from edinburgh when it's getting all a little claustrophobic...
There's so much I want to tell you about, I could sit here forever but I'm sleepy and my train is too early. I'm gonna miss you.
lots
xxx r
ps hope the summers being good to you
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i know these past few months have been odd, probably to say the least, for you. i hope things are at least starting to pull together in some sort of coherent, albeit stained-glass sort of fashion.
last night i went to the counting crows concert...usually i stand during concerts (yes i'm that girl), if not flail about like a madwoman...however, during 'rain king' i had to lay down, i know it's a bit off, but i felt like there was this huge weight that i had ignored lifting for a moment and it was so much to bear for me. i stared up at the blue fading into black in the sky, while thirty eight thousand people failed to notice the tear making it's way down that familiar run of my cheek. and thank god because i couldn't deal with it if anyone saw... i came to the realization of this: i will never completely get over that last one that i loved so utterly and completely, strong enough to lose myself, but for once i didn't. and loving someone if it's reciprocated and yet obstructed and still unatainable is almost worse than if it wasn't. love, the emotional bastard, is vacant and unseen to me, at least so far away in a distant that no man made contraption could ever measure. last night i let it go a little, in the middle of a crowd, also vacant and unseen, but enough to sway from my daily untouchable facade.
i hope your 'holiday proper' was fantastic, and that you're rested, and that your mum and dad are doing well.
xxx and when you're not looking a stealthy
~h.
gawd we had a great time! i put up a few pics,but my pics folder is full so i could only fit in about five.
so how is your visit going? i would so love to go there and see all of the things you talk about. you could show me around and we could drink booze laced peppermint tea and laugh like maniacs about nothing in particular. *sigh*
i will talk to you soon~check in as soon as you can! ~a