ryman

after just a slight freakout earlier (see previous entry if you're at all interested, I wouldn't recommend it especially). i've had a posh meal in a posh restaruant on the top floor of a museum, with amazing views of the city and its sunset. I got paid today and my best girlyfriend was feeling miserable so we spoiled ourselves.
and too much wine. mmmmmmmmmmm.
which is the reason that my syntax is shot to fuck. sorry if this doesn't read too good.
and its also the reason that I'm about to go on an ill-advised internet and visa-fuelled spending spree.
What was bothering me earlier has paled into insignificance since I got an email from her (you know, her....) later on in the day telling me that she was thinking of coming back from a land far, far away a whole lot earlier than I was prepared for. I'd given myself another 4 or 5 months to stop wanting her quite so bad and now she tells me she might be back in a month or two.
which is fine. I've learned by now that I just can't be responsible for other people's actions/feelings (the hardest lesson ever learned), but I just wanted to tell her "I want you back", knowing that's not what she needs to hear....
Ignore me, I'm just drunk and in need of someone to spoon with.