ryman

Things are better today, and I realise that there's no sense in worrying about what is going to happen or what has happened. the happypositivedme keeps reminding me that my life is what I make of it, everything else is just rumour and gossip, but the meannegativepessimisticme is always there to laugh at me for being so naive and foolish.
The one that is winning depends on the silliest things; whether the girl-I-still-care-about-verymuch has texted me today (and she has) if the sun is out (it is, kind of) and if i've had enough caffeine (not nearly). So today is ok, and i know enough by now to understand that I should just sit and be content. Its enough for the time being.

I've also rediscovered my love of sparklehorse. sad cracked-voice songs about animals and love do it for me every time...
xxx r
thanks everyone. you're all beautiful.