you know its bad when you start identifying with Avril Lavigne songs...
Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but others would probably tell you I'm just plain neurotic, needy and emotionally manipulative. None of which I'm particularly proud of. I've done a pretty good job of fucking up every good thing that has happened to me, and as much as I'd like to believe in fate and chance and the general suckiness iof life, I know it must be pretty much down to me in the end. And I don't know how to change, how to be a better person and not the one that looks at me each morning and doesn't like what he sees too much. some days are better than others and today isn't one of the good ones.
Thomas Hardy said "Character is fate" and right now I'm thinking I'm fucked and I don't know what to do. Stop moaning, get on with it and try to trust that everything will be ok somehow
I'm reading a biography of Primo Levi at the moment and I realise that compared to everything that he went through, this is nothing. I should be (and I am) grateful for the chances and friends that I have.
And that means you lot too.
thanks xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx r
Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but others would probably tell you I'm just plain neurotic, needy and emotionally manipulative. None of which I'm particularly proud of. I've done a pretty good job of fucking up every good thing that has happened to me, and as much as I'd like to believe in fate and chance and the general suckiness iof life, I know it must be pretty much down to me in the end. And I don't know how to change, how to be a better person and not the one that looks at me each morning and doesn't like what he sees too much. some days are better than others and today isn't one of the good ones.
Thomas Hardy said "Character is fate" and right now I'm thinking I'm fucked and I don't know what to do. Stop moaning, get on with it and try to trust that everything will be ok somehow
I'm reading a biography of Primo Levi at the moment and I realise that compared to everything that he went through, this is nothing. I should be (and I am) grateful for the chances and friends that I have.
And that means you lot too.
thanks xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx r
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So long as you don't feel like you relate to Sk8ter Boi then it's all good. If you did, I'd definitely have to throttle you