thought for the day:
"Yellowed, creased and crumpled faces still smile
Snap-shot begging "Please don't forget me"
Seems like everybody's got a set of good old days they like to remember themselves back into when their current state is lacking some way.
Mean sweet and empty all my teeth are singing...
"Sugar, come back down to the cavity"
Buckle in, settle down. You've got a...
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"Yellowed, creased and crumpled faces still smile
Snap-shot begging "Please don't forget me"
Seems like everybody's got a set of good old days they like to remember themselves back into when their current state is lacking some way.
Mean sweet and empty all my teeth are singing...
"Sugar, come back down to the cavity"
Buckle in, settle down. You've got a...
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Things are better today, and I realise that there's no sense in worrying about what is going to happen or what has happened. the happypositivedme keeps reminding me that my life is what I make of it, everything else is just rumour and gossip, but the meannegativepessimisticme is always there to laugh at me for being so naive and foolish.
The one that is winning...
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The one that is winning...
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elisabeth:
Thank you for the kind wishes. It sounds like you've got a good dose of clarity to work with. Let it flow....
cherry:
Hey, I don't see you as commenting because you haven't spoken to me as stalkerish 
Wow, I haven't heard any sparklehorse in a long time
Cherry xox
Wow, I haven't heard any sparklehorse in a long time
Cherry xox
you know its bad when you start identifying with Avril Lavigne songs...
Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but...
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Every part of my body, mind and soul loathes everything she stands for, but there were three minutes this morning when "Complicated" came on the radio and suddenly my life made sense, and I realised THAT SONG IS ME.
I shouldn't be admitting it, should I?
Some friends call me "high maintenance" but...
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ophelia:
I'm doing a BA in English Lit and Linguistics. I'm going into my final year come September, which is kind of cool. but at the same time scares the crap out of me, seeing as afterwards it means that I'll have to do something useful with my life. I'm seriously tempted to move back to West Sussex since I *know* that I can get a decent job there just by having a degree in anything.
So long as you don't feel like you relate to Sk8ter Boi then it's all good. If you did, I'd definitely have to throttle you
So long as you don't feel like you relate to Sk8ter Boi then it's all good. If you did, I'd definitely have to throttle you
minimalism:
Please forgive the head bobble. I know it's a little strange. Don't be afraid to admit you like David Gary. He's amazing.
Its another weird one, and I'm just a little drunk so i probably shouldn't be writing this. Please don't judge me because I'm a drunk and an idiot.
the things that have happened this week make me wonder what the hell I'm doing. Llona was talking about a "cosmic smackdown" and I guess if one exists I'm in the middle of it right now. Or...
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the things that have happened this week make me wonder what the hell I'm doing. Llona was talking about a "cosmic smackdown" and I guess if one exists I'm in the middle of it right now. Or...
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clara:
Baltimore is a very fun place to live. It's just dirty enough to not be too dirty. If that makes any sense at all. I frequently do wear that lampshade on my head for some reason. I'm delusional enough to believe that it really looks like a hat, but not enough to wear it outside the house.
llona:
Somebody was posting in my journal and said that if I have any sag friends, I should be a good friend to them and give them a helmet.
Dancing in your underwear to ABBA never hurt anyone.
Re: exes sending letters saying they still love you: don't buy it. Emotional manipulation is the name of that game. I know because I play it all the time.
xo
Dancing in your underwear to ABBA never hurt anyone.
Re: exes sending letters saying they still love you: don't buy it. Emotional manipulation is the name of that game. I know because I play it all the time.
xo
hello again..
its been a while, and I've got so much to tell so I know that this is gonna end up short (because I will keep forgetting everything I meant to say). The weekend was great, a little confusing, but great. I kissed the girl I should have kissed a long time ago, and it was lovely. I stayed the night at her house...
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its been a while, and I've got so much to tell so I know that this is gonna end up short (because I will keep forgetting everything I meant to say). The weekend was great, a little confusing, but great. I kissed the girl I should have kissed a long time ago, and it was lovely. I stayed the night at her house...
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clara:
Lives at the other end of the country? Damn. 
llona:
I wish you could come and go shopping with me.....I need a good shopping partner.
Wow. Have fun at the wedding. That sounds so beautiful.
There's a soft spot in my heart for hopeless romantics.
xo
Wow. Have fun at the wedding. That sounds so beautiful.
There's a soft spot in my heart for hopeless romantics.
xo
I finally catch up with myself...
Its been a good night and now I'm a little drunk and tired and my bed is looking so appealing right now, but too empty. You know that feeling? I realised the other week that I keep one side of it covered in crap just so it doesn't feel empty when i'm sleeping. It would be too much space,...
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Its been a good night and now I'm a little drunk and tired and my bed is looking so appealing right now, but too empty. You know that feeling? I realised the other week that I keep one side of it covered in crap just so it doesn't feel empty when i'm sleeping. It would be too much space,...
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ophelia:
I sleep with 2 duvets, 5 pillows and a teddy bear now. If I get myself wrapped up enough then I can try to forget that I have to sleep alone.
A hug is better than nothing
A hug is better than nothing
clara:
You need a snuggly pet. One of my kitties sleeps under the covers with me.
eeeeek
I'm so busy, kind of. Life is just happening to me at the moment, so i've not been very dilligent in keeping up my journal and replying to other people's (or tidying my house, but that's another matter...)
I'm sory I'm sorry I'm sorry.
You'll have my full attention soon though, I promise. Right now I'm off to jump into the shower and listen...
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I'm so busy, kind of. Life is just happening to me at the moment, so i've not been very dilligent in keeping up my journal and replying to other people's (or tidying my house, but that's another matter...)
I'm sory I'm sorry I'm sorry.
You'll have my full attention soon though, I promise. Right now I'm off to jump into the shower and listen...
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ophelia:
The effexor isn't really a problem anymore. I'm over all the withdrawal and nastiness, I've just been alone lots and lots which makes me a helluva lot more depressed, whether I'm on antidepressants or not.
Thinking : how much I wish I could be in my bed with my kitty cat right now
Reading : The Secret Agent by Conrad which I don't much like but it's a school book.
Listening to : The sound of me typing?
Person who stole my heart : A quiet, caring boy with big brown eyes.
Thinking : how much I wish I could be in my bed with my kitty cat right now
Reading : The Secret Agent by Conrad which I don't much like but it's a school book.
Listening to : The sound of me typing?
Person who stole my heart : A quiet, caring boy with big brown eyes.
tarbaby:
crushes are just crushing...i can't seem to get over this last one. oh well-life goes on right?
I've had a great night.
Not the one I expected, but lovely all the same... went throught to glasgow to see Hot Water Music and spent the day wandering around shops and drinking tea. bought my first modest mouse record and I get the feeling this is a band I'm going to grow to love.
Finding new music, something completely unique which i never imagined...
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Not the one I expected, but lovely all the same... went throught to glasgow to see Hot Water Music and spent the day wandering around shops and drinking tea. bought my first modest mouse record and I get the feeling this is a band I'm going to grow to love.
Finding new music, something completely unique which i never imagined...
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badcatjones:
I haven't heard Erase Errata, I'll check them out. They sound good....thanks for the suggestion.
I am feeling better, but my sense of smell is still off. I know what you mean about the dreams though....Last night I had a weird dream about having sex with a boy I haven't seen or thought of in like ten years. We were having sex in a closet and I was wearing apricot colored panties. That's the weirdest part.
I am feeling better, but my sense of smell is still off. I know what you mean about the dreams though....Last night I had a weird dream about having sex with a boy I haven't seen or thought of in like ten years. We were having sex in a closet and I was wearing apricot colored panties. That's the weirdest part.
badcatjones:
Oh p.s. I love the thought of you (or my mind's version of you) laying around drinking tea and reading back issues of Vogue and watching kids television.
Man, that is my life a lot of days.
Man, that is my life a lot of days.
Its weird how suddenly everyhting can seem to change. I say "seem" because even though I know the reality of the situation ahsn't changed since last week, maybe its sinking in a little more and I'm coming to terms with it. or maybe just dealing with it.
There's something in the Talmud which says "We do not see things as they are. We see them...
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There's something in the Talmud which says "We do not see things as they are. We see them...
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onefoolishline:
heeeeeeeey i like keats. he's sexy in a goth kind of way...
i hope you have a FANTASTIC weekend.
i hope you have a FANTASTIC weekend.
how do you know I'm not a sentimental guy?
i've decided that this weekend is going to be it. A freshish start and the time to start making the changes to my life that I know are so overdue. I know that sounds a bit self-helpy (and I guess it is) but all this sitting around isn't doing me any good. I'm going to do...
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i've decided that this weekend is going to be it. A freshish start and the time to start making the changes to my life that I know are so overdue. I know that sounds a bit self-helpy (and I guess it is) but all this sitting around isn't doing me any good. I'm going to do...
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badcatjones:
I like you the most.
elisabeth:
I'm sorry I didn't get to wish you happy bday until now. And yes, transatlantic, I've got some friends i haven't seen in ages in the UK, but I also wish to visit the Netherlands, Spain, and Portugal.
Remember pain=change=progress. That's what I tell myself every day until I believe it.
Remember pain=change=progress. That's what I tell myself every day until I believe it.
now listening to the dismemberment plan "emergency and I". I love this album with all of my (slightly battered) heart and soul.
What do you want me to say?
Thank you thank you for your birthday wishes. I had areally sweet time ( too much cake
) and it would have been good to have some of you lot there. I had a party at...
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What do you want me to say?
Thank you thank you for your birthday wishes. I had areally sweet time ( too much cake
) and it would have been good to have some of you lot there. I had a party at... Read More
prudence:
thanks
onefoolishline:
what IS this word "skronky?" 
what does it mean?! i think it might be one of the best words ever!
i'm so glad you had a good birthday, even if you are hungover
wish i could have been there to dance to the squirrel song (or bounce around to it, i don't really dance, just kind of flail about).
and now it's back to my term paper on Keatsian sublime..say it with me: WAHOOOOOOOOO!
it's kicking my ass see:
ow...
what does it mean?! i think it might be one of the best words ever!
i'm so glad you had a good birthday, even if you are hungover
wish i could have been there to dance to the squirrel song (or bounce around to it, i don't really dance, just kind of flail about).
and now it's back to my term paper on Keatsian sublime..say it with me: WAHOOOOOOOOO!
it's kicking my ass see:
ow...once more...
"looking back with perfect symmetry,
mistakes were you,
mistakes were me..."
Sparta make me so sad sometimes, when I think about how much I loved ATDI and what they maybe could have gone on to (rather than making fairly pedestrian post-hardcore). But there are other times when they get it right, don't know why or how...
"looking back with perfect symmetry,
mistakes were you,
mistakes were me..."
Sparta make me so sad sometimes, when I think about how much I loved ATDI and what they maybe could have gone on to (rather than making fairly pedestrian post-hardcore). But there are other times when they get it right, don't know why or how...
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tarbaby:
dang! i wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday...oh well...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
onefoolishline:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOLL! 
It was coming off my antidepressants that made everything go all weird and made me gain weight. I know that if I go back to the doctor's they'll be all pissed off because I didn't reduce my dosage like I was meant to, and just went off cold turkey, so I'm trying to avoid them as much as possible for now.