rye8

i havent had a real good update in awhile. things have been pretty up and down and down and out as of late. i dont know what it is. but i always have some kind of mood swing going on. the other night i was sitting on the porch smoking cigarettes with my roommate. we were just shooting the shit about a lot of things, and he was worried about the girl he is somewhat seeing. he thinks she is blwoing him off. he gets to be pretty emotional about things at times, and sometimes thinks too much about things when he shouldn't. he over reads a lot of situations.

i told him not to worry about it. and not to get worked up about some things. i told him, that ever since 2 weeks ago when i "hooked" up with my ex girl that one night, i havent really shed light on trying to be with someone. if i am meant to be with someone i will be. right now im all about having fun, working, and doing the band thing.

well last night at band practice, i let the best of things get to me. i was having a great day up until an hour into practice. i dont know if it was a combination of having to wait around for an hour or so for mike to get there, or the power outlets blowing. and finally when we did start playing i just wasn't "feeling it" i sat down and just got into a horrible mood. i started to think a lot about things in my life.

there are so many things i want to do right now. i'm 28 years old. i want to own my own house. i want a family. etc.. i know that may sound crazy to some, but i really would like to settle down. focus more on my job and just start living my life.

and to start this phase in my life, i guess i need to "date" someone in order for that to happen. but the thing of it is, i am severely picky when it comes to women. i'm not down right depresed right now, but i know i am not feeling "ok"


thursday night playlist
Jimmy Eat World - Futures
Kylesa - No Remorse
Texas is the Reason - Back and to the Left
The Misfits - Astro Zombies
Asshole Parade - Armsling
The Explosion - Terrorist