ryder

Well I'm over this whole picture bs, none of my pics are small enough and I can't crop them that much. Anyways I'll just shut up before I really make myself look like an idiot! So I went up to Tahoe for the weekend, just my sis and my mom, a girls weekend. We went out to dinner and to the beach, and I got to see my new nephew for the first time. It's my brothers first, and my first time being an aunt. I was so scared holding him, he's so tiny and fragile I kept asking if I was holding him right. It makes me want a baby. but then I think about our lifestyle and I realize no way we're definately not ready. Actualy I was pregnant before my brothers girlfriend, but at five months I had to have it terminated due to severe birth defects. At the time I thought I wanted to wait three months then try again, but after the whole horrible experiance was over I realized I wasn't ready, we aren't ready, there's still so much I want to do before I have kids, like travel, finish school, move, have some wild threesomes! All that odd stuff that for me I'm not saying this goes for everyone, but for me it's not going to be my lifestyle when I have a kid. Anyways I have this great picture of Robert Smith hopefully this works if not I give up.