ryanhirschsucks

I hung out with Ashley at the beginning of this week and i gotta tell you. It was fun. A little awkward at first. But it was really cool to just chill with her and talk and I think that was probably the biggest issue with our relationship. We didn't talk at all. We just lived in a comfortable state of routine. I'd get out of work, go to her house, climb into bed. We'd watch adult swim and pass out. She's have to wake up early in the morning. I'd leave her house to go back to my house, get ready for work and go back to work. That was our every day life. Looking back on it, it's no wonder why we couldn't keep it together. I'm so glad to be free from routine and she is too. She's doing really good for herself up there. She's so strong. I'm so proud of the girl. She's going to be joining the internship program at the Balsams. She didn't tell me this but I looked it up. It means she will be getting her degree through NHCTC Berlin. But The experience alone is going to open the door to so many opportunities to her. She's going to be in the program for three years. She isn't just going to work at the balsams. She is going to travel the country working at different hotels. I'm actually envious of this. She is going to be living the life that I would dream to have. And never have I been so proud of her. She really is an amazing girl and a talented cook. I always knew she was going to do something incredible with her life. And I am not going to be the one to hold her back. I may go and visit her a few times. But I've come to realize that I'm not doing her any favors by having her miss me.

I've decided that I need to hang out with more chill people in my life.
A lot of my friends try to live their lives to the max. the extremem hardcore way.
That's just getting annoying.

I need to hang out with people who aren't judgemental, egotistacle, vain, stupid, assholes.
It's getting kinda old when you still act the way you did back in high school.
I've come to realize the reason why I never make too many long lasting friends.
I am not part of a "scene." Which doesn't bother me in the least bit.
But my friends now for the most part are pretty "scene."

And the only people I meet really are through them.
So if you aren't part of a "scene."
I would like to hang out with you.
I'm a social misfit, and I enjoy the company of other social misfits.

And if you hate the friends that I'm making now...
that's none of your concern.
You are apparently not chill enough to be my friend.
So either let me be me, and let me make my own decisions.
Or step asside. I'm not going to listen to you either way.

Live and Let Live.
Peace.