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ryanbarbee

Petersburg Illinois

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Wednesday Feb 10, 2010

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I'm changing my life. I hurt somebody I truly cared about all because I wanted sex. I have a problem. Its all I think about. Its terrible. I just want my life back to normal. As of today Im changing. Ive unjoined these sex groups on here. Ive blocked porn sites, put parental controls on etc etc. This is terrible. I feel like shit. I feel pathetic.

The one girl I loved opened up to me and told me whats hurting her and whats been bothering her and all I wanted to do was pinch one off. Im fucking worthless.

As of now Im a new person. Ive found ways to occupy my mind and time. Ive started working out more. Ive started writing and drawing again. Ive picked up the synthesizer again. I want my old life back.

To Amanda,

Im so sorry for what I did. I dont deserve such an amazing, caring, and loving person like yourself. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I care about you so much. You mean a lot to me. From the day you messaged me I knew I wanted to be yours. I hope to be with you soon. Im so sorry.

lovebite:
thank you.....we need to take things slow...i don't know what's going to happen, but it will be good for you to change things for you, don't do it for me, do it for yourself.
Feb 10, 2010

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