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rxdxt

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Sunday Oct 01, 2006

Oct 1, 2006
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hi all.

long time no update.. sorry bout that.

I'm in London now, for like 3 more days, then back to Romania.. a lot of ups and downs here.

ups 1st; took my daughters (well one of them, one just watched) horseback riding. here's some photos of me playing cowboy...


My daughters loved it, it was great. Of course, that didn't stop my wife and stepmother from being rude to my friends who invited us over... i was so embarassed. (basically, my friend had gone to a lot of trouble to make us a bbq and then my wife-prodded by the m.i.l. (mother in law) wanted to just bolt after petting the horses. we fixed it, but not without some dirty glances and lots of guild trip nonsense.

It all worked out fine though and we had a lovely bbq. I even got a sunburn. we also picked a new castle to shoot at, it's called Hunendora Castle



on the movie side, things are going to shit, the financing isn't closing, I'm actually back in London looking for new money. If I don't find it soon, we'll have to wait till after Xmas to shoot, which REALLY screws us.

more whining later, for those of you who care, those who don't, skip that part.

Other news, I'm in London now, have been for a week. lots of meetings - spent a lot of time walking around. If we don't close financing on the movies, then we can't move here, we'll have to wait in Romania... everything I own is in storage, so that'll be weird. we're looking at apartments there.

In a bit of good news, the electric car thing is really quite the rage - and our movie is benefitting. I did like three interviews in the past week and we're getting a lot of attention from the educational area like this story about William and Mary College holding a big debate about it. The dvd comes out in a month, see Who Killed the Electric Car? on myspace for ordering info.

Or just click here to pre-order it!

now to me.

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so I'm pretty sad, really sad, I'm having trouble pulling out of it. something strange has happened with my wife and I, we're hot and cold, but more cold lately than hot. Frankly sitting in my hotel the other night I thought to myself, maybe we're splitting up... then the next day everything is fine... but it's not. It's strange, you think you have your life on a decent track and everything is going great, then one second you wake up and it's shit. really you never never know...

Also, in case I didn't mention this, I'm suing my old landlord in Los Angeles, yes we were renting before we moved, figured we would be leaving maybe so we hadn't bought. Well that ass is holding my deposits and making up crazy stories about damages to the place.. just madness. So that's another big pile of shit I have to deal with.

Laslty, i'm depressed. physically, mentally and emotionally. you never really realize how alone you are till you need someone to talk to. so there it is, I've really not got very many people. Most of my friends are far away. Everyone I talk to day to day works for me, so that's no good (weird how isolated I am and didn't even know it.) I was reading the UK paper today (man the news here is mental, kind of amusing though) and there's a new psycho-babble thing these days called male rage. It's basically when you feel helpless and miserable, angry and alone almost all the time. I'd usually ignore this kind of thing, except that's exactly how I feel most of the time. huh. maybe I'll go buy the book.

So I'll hold it together, but I'm actually feeling low now. so think good thoughts.



Ok so I'm back in romania wednesday, but the wife and my partner will be here in London sussing a few more details on our production plan out before we make the critical decision to shoot or not shoot. that's it.

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girlfrompasadena:
hey.
things sound very hectic, full-on and draining right now. i really don't know what to say, but i hope you feel a little lighter for having shared it. and your daughter(s) gorgeous!
best of luck xox
Oct 2, 2006
holagatita:
oh man, sounds like you're having a bad time right now. I hope things get better soon. Have you and your wife tried counseling, or just sitting down and really talking things out? I wish you luck with all your situations. Surely things will get better soon.
That castle photo is beautiful!
I would love to visit Romania one day!
Oct 3, 2006

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