russo

This is the worst I have felt in a long time. Blake (the love of my life) and I were talking. We are best friends and we love each other like mad, but we agreed to sleep with other people. He was saying, "Yeah, there's this one chick, next time I see her I'm going to fuck her up the ass!" I laughed, because he probably would. Then I said, "You know, it's weird, you and Dustin have a lot in common. You both have an ass fetish." Then Blake said, "How would you know?" And I told him I slept with him. He wasn't too upset, but then he asked, "Did you let him fuck you in the ass?" And I said yes, because we swore to be honest with each other.

Here's the kicker: Blake then laughes bitterly and said, "I have lost all respect for you." I said, "I'm sorry, I was too drunk to say no!" Then he repeated, "I have lost ALL respect for you. Letting a punk fuck you in the ass." Well, I got upset and said, "You think I have much respect for myself? Do you really think I enjoy being fucked and then told to get out of the house??" And he said no, but that he still didn't respect me.

Now, Blake and I are going to get married someday. We love each other and work so well together that we want to spend the rest of our lives together. I asked him, "Do you still like me? Do you want to still get married someday?" And he was silent. He laughed. Not a nice laugh either. Like a bitter, 'you fucking slut' laugh. And I told him I was upset and I needed to be alone. I said "Goodbye, I love you." And he hung up.

I called back like 1 minute later to say I was sorry, but his mom answered the phone. I asked if he was there, she put me on hold for a few minutes, came back, and said he was gone. He wasn't gone, he was in his fucking room. And now I feel like a whore.

SO ITS NOT OKAY FOR ME TO HAVE SEX BUT YOU CAN YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE???? I fucking hate him.



Edited to add: I'm over it.