so 12 days in washington wasn't even close to enough. i don't think a lifetime would be sufficient but needless to say i can't wait to get my ass back there. not to mention there is an ass up there waiting for me ♥ (it's a sweet ass too
) but anywho i've started to make a weed through my shit plan for the move. i can't take my whole house worth off shit 3,000 miles and it's time to down-size anyway, i have way too much shit. i'm super buzzed and incredibly distracted so i am gunna post some pictures from WA and then flutter around and try this later...bloody ADHD.
it is such a lazy day that i have not left my house once. i have been sitting in this chair reading "into the wild" for hours now and listening to elliott smith...and of course talking to my mister...this is a lovely day...oh and pizza and bread sticks are on their way...
reason #57 i love lanconator : he orders me pizza hut from 3,223 miles away. and its perfect.
oh and this was my latest myspace blog it's super long and kind of in depth but none the less it's how i feel at the moment, and why have to type the same shit twice...
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as july is the 7th month of the year and we are officially more than half done with 2008 i figure a slight bit of reflection is in order shall we?
this has been such a fantastic half year rife with good and awful leaving me with many a good tale for that book i was so obviously born to write ( i conclude this from the ridiculous circumstances i often find myself in that i am certain are evidence of an underlying cosmic plot to give me an amazing story)
i think the washington trip did something for my outlook, other than give me a completely mentally stress-free 12 days to clear out the clouds, it gave me a concrete something to work towards. seeing this beautiful place brimming with possibility for me, and having an amazing person willing to work towards a common goal is such insentive for the things i must accomplish before my trek across the country. saving money and tying up the loose ends of my life as a floridian being main issues...and of course leaving with an emotionally clean slate, as apposed to the running away i did in younger years, leaving hurt behind damaging relationships that are vitally important, especially the farther i get from home, now matter how it may seem the opposite.
on another subject, the traveling gave me time to catch up on reading...finishing "bless your heart, tramp", "I, Chong", and then only minutes ago "into the wild", which i could not put down. i must admit i have had that particular urge. the thing keeping me from indulging being that i completely acknowledge i lack the aptitude to survive the wild in general, and i certainly couldn't live off the land. i can live in a van...i just have to be able to buy ciggies and munchies...and of course ganja, which in modern day america may be a difficult situation to find wild. but most of all i identify with the need to embrace the foreign and move into spaces unknown. and it of course intrigues me that a large quantity of the rock climbing, consta-camping, neuvo-primatives, that engage in this sort of modern manifest destiny-reclaim and expansion (into alaska of course) spent time in washington state and oregon. it being a regular port of passage to people on their way into alaska...ferry rides and connecting flights taking you into the more populated parts of this icy barren land...it would certainly be an experience...
i guess what this is coming down to is that i view the treck to washington as my walk into the wild. not because i will be enduring any sort of sub-standard condition, but because it will not only be the polar opposite end of the continent from where i (and all my family and most of my friends hail) removing me completely from my comfort zone, i will also be the first person in my family to establish stable residency outside the state of florida...and of course because, there is no one like lance. having a happy functioning relationship and feeling optimistic about things will be a new venture for me. i so often flee in order to not fight or because of a conflict it will feel nice to calmly move away by choice. simple will alone. and end up with an awesome person in the process, i really don't see a downside.
basically what i am saying is this,
if you are getting rid of anything you think i'd like (come on you know we have the same closet/decorating sense) you should post pics of it and prices and i will trade you my money for your discards hehe. seriously though. im gonna keep bugging you about this.
also put some stuff up in The Swap Meet group here and try to get some money lady.
p.s. im so happy for you!