I am tired of going home to an empty house...I am TIRED of being lonely!!!
Well someone told me yesterday
That when you throw your love away
You act as if you just don't care
You look as if you're going somewhere
But I just can't convince myself
I couldn't live with no one else
And I can only play that part
And sit and...
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Well someone told me yesterday
That when you throw your love away
You act as if you just don't care
You look as if you're going somewhere
But I just can't convince myself
I couldn't live with no one else
And I can only play that part
And sit and...
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So I took my sister driving the other day so that she could get in some "seat time" before her drivers test. SHe was super nervous whne we started and by the time we were done she was really confident--how can one without confidence insipre it? The next day my Mom took her to the test and she did not pass. Now I feel REALLY...
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superficial:
ahh... it's not your fault... think of it this way, if you didn't try to help her, she would have definately failed, if she failed even after more experience...
sometimes (at least here in ny) they take points off for stupid stuff like not looking in your mirror for a specified number of seconds, and slowing down too much for making turns... it's impossible to know what they're gonna get you for. it depends on who you take the test with and what kind of day they're having, it seems...
anyway, i thought your question "how can one without confidence inspire it?" was fairly interesting... it just does happen like that sometimes, doesn't it?
sometimes (at least here in ny) they take points off for stupid stuff like not looking in your mirror for a specified number of seconds, and slowing down too much for making turns... it's impossible to know what they're gonna get you for. it depends on who you take the test with and what kind of day they're having, it seems...
anyway, i thought your question "how can one without confidence inspire it?" was fairly interesting... it just does happen like that sometimes, doesn't it?
rxqueen:
aw. don't feel bad.
alot of the times (or at least in ny) they don't pass people on their first time with the road test.
i think i know ONE person who passed the first time - and my friends aren't bad drivers *shrug*
as far as the ex goes, yeah. i mean we were best friends since before we started to date so that friendship means a helluva lot to me. he has a new girlfriend and i couldn't be happier for him.
have a good one, and don't stress too much about yr sis.
xo
alot of the times (or at least in ny) they don't pass people on their first time with the road test.
i think i know ONE person who passed the first time - and my friends aren't bad drivers *shrug*
as far as the ex goes, yeah. i mean we were best friends since before we started to date so that friendship means a helluva lot to me. he has a new girlfriend and i couldn't be happier for him.
have a good one, and don't stress too much about yr sis.
xo
I got a faulty parachute
I got a stranger's friend
An exciting change in
My butchers blend
A symbol on the ceiling
With the flick of a switch
My new found hero
In the enemy's ditching
Well somebody's something was left in the room
And man now that its gone well of course we assume
That somebody else needed something so bad
That they took...
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I got a stranger's friend
An exciting change in
My butchers blend
A symbol on the ceiling
With the flick of a switch
My new found hero
In the enemy's ditching
Well somebody's something was left in the room
And man now that its gone well of course we assume
That somebody else needed something so bad
That they took...
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quinne:
a collection?
superficial:
hey, if i ever find some self-confidence, i'll send you some. 
you should go back to that record store now! say hi, ask her about upcoming shows or something...
i didn't see any bands that really blew me away, but there was a really cute bass player in one of the bands, but i didn't have the confidence to go talk to her after...
i'm kicking myself, now, though.
you should go back to that record store now! say hi, ask her about upcoming shows or something...
i didn't see any bands that really blew me away, but there was a really cute bass player in one of the bands, but i didn't have the confidence to go talk to her after...
i'm kicking myself, now, though.Waitin', watchin' the clock
It's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more
She practices her speech, as he opens the door
She rolls over
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
1-She lies and says she's in love with him
Can't find a better man
She dreams in color, she dreams in red
Can't find a better man, can't find...
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It's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more
She practices her speech, as he opens the door
She rolls over
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
1-She lies and says she's in love with him
Can't find a better man
She dreams in color, she dreams in red
Can't find a better man, can't find...
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superficial:
i haven't heard that song in years...
what's up? what's on your mind... i'm guessing there's a reason you put this song up here... 'cause i'm smart like that.
it's weird, 'cause i'm going through all these messed up cycles right now... one second i'm pissed at her and all the shit she put me through, the next i just want to be her friend, then i want to be with her again, then someone will tell me we're better off apart, then i'll be pissed again, etc...
the whole time i know she's just pissed at me and wants nothing to do with me, 'cause that's just the way she is... maybe she didn't ever love me
oh well, again.
what's up? what's on your mind... i'm guessing there's a reason you put this song up here... 'cause i'm smart like that.
it's weird, 'cause i'm going through all these messed up cycles right now... one second i'm pissed at her and all the shit she put me through, the next i just want to be her friend, then i want to be with her again, then someone will tell me we're better off apart, then i'll be pissed again, etc...
the whole time i know she's just pissed at me and wants nothing to do with me, 'cause that's just the way she is... maybe she didn't ever love me
oh well, again.
I am running everyday again...which is a positive. The key was to buy new running shoes...now I feel like I have to run everyday to justify the expense.
superficial:
you want to hear something weird?
i was thinking about buying new running shoes just the other day... i was thinking that i don't get enough exercise, and i used to run or mountain bike, everyday before i met her...
anyway, all of the comments you've made in my journal have been soooo true... it's weird how all of my friends now are "our" friends, friends that we made in the 5 years we were together... some of them i feel weird talking to, knowing that they were closer to her... so, i haven't talked to them much lately...
anyway, i have been having better days... it's just that i miss her terribly... i know we weren't happy together lately, but if she were to come back and want to talk right now, i'd talk to her... and make up and work on making things better... but she's so pissed at me she won't even let me explain things to her... and i think that's what's frustrating me so much... thinking that if she'd just give me a chance to talk to we could work things out...
i was thinking about buying new running shoes just the other day... i was thinking that i don't get enough exercise, and i used to run or mountain bike, everyday before i met her...
anyway, all of the comments you've made in my journal have been soooo true... it's weird how all of my friends now are "our" friends, friends that we made in the 5 years we were together... some of them i feel weird talking to, knowing that they were closer to her... so, i haven't talked to them much lately...
anyway, i have been having better days... it's just that i miss her terribly... i know we weren't happy together lately, but if she were to come back and want to talk right now, i'd talk to her... and make up and work on making things better... but she's so pissed at me she won't even let me explain things to her... and i think that's what's frustrating me so much... thinking that if she'd just give me a chance to talk to we could work things out...
superficial:
i'm sorry to hear that you are going through what i am... it sucks...
we'll get through it, though!
we'll get through it, though!
superficial:
hey, just hoping that you're doing well!
I finished Diary last night...Palahniuk blew me away with Fight Club, Survivor, and Choke but I am still not sold on this one.
I think that I am missing the "reality tv gene". I am physically unable to watch more than 3 seconds of reality tv. If I wanted to watch people make fools of themselves I would have stayed in High School...Bloody Savages!!!
I think that I am missing the "reality tv gene". I am physically unable to watch more than 3 seconds of reality tv. If I wanted to watch people make fools of themselves I would have stayed in High School...Bloody Savages!!!
Whomever decided that Family Reunion were a good idea should be whipped. I like my family, don't get me wrong, but forced interaction is so tedious. It's bad enough to have faux conversations with strangers, but to have them with family members... So, where do you work now? Couch Insurace Sales. How is college? It was great when I graduated 4 years ago. Etc. The...
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Yesterday was strange:
After a super shitty day at work I went for a run on a trail that I had never been down before. It went up over the side of a small mt. At the top I cold see forever...out over the atlantic to one side and back to the west more hills, valleys, mts, and hte sun slowly setting. I sat at...
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After a super shitty day at work I went for a run on a trail that I had never been down before. It went up over the side of a small mt. At the top I cold see forever...out over the atlantic to one side and back to the west more hills, valleys, mts, and hte sun slowly setting. I sat at...
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schoolgirl:
My little gal, the one eating the warning label, loves listening the th beautiful Jouhnny Cash. she gets all quiet and listens attentively. I am saddened by this.
I know it's a bit more than cliche, but doesn't running up to the top of a hill looking down everything seem small and make a little more sense?
I know it's a bit more than cliche, but doesn't running up to the top of a hill looking down everything seem small and make a little more sense?
If someone stood up in a crowd
And raised his voice up way out loud
And waved his arm
And shook his leg
You'd notice him
If someone in a movie show
Yelled "fired in the second row,
This whole place is a powder keg!"
You'd notice him
And even without clucking like a hen
Everyone gets noticed, now and then,
Unless, of course, that...
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And raised his voice up way out loud
And waved his arm
And shook his leg
You'd notice him
If someone in a movie show
Yelled "fired in the second row,
This whole place is a powder keg!"
You'd notice him
And even without clucking like a hen
Everyone gets noticed, now and then,
Unless, of course, that...
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jasperellah:
hahaha, 'With every hot photos, theyrs always a million crappy photos' ya know? And i every so sweetly picked the ones i liked to show to all of you 
xoxoxoxoxo
Gladdd you liked it though shweetheartttt
xoxoxoxoxo
Gladdd you liked it though shweetheartttt
Why does she feel the need to call me on the excat day that I have decided that I am not going to care anymore? She has some sick, twisted sense that allows her to know the moment that my scars have healed enough to allow me to move on...and she calls...and tears them all open again...
Like ruining all my favorite places with her...
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Like ruining all my favorite places with her...
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jivesucka52:
That's awesome. Who wants to learn english from the guy who smokes bowls outside your house. Hahaha. That's me. Great one!
It;s raining so hard that I have decided to build an ark out of used film containers...and my riding buddy broke his neck yesterday while we were riding, so I bummed out
I've been terminally lonely for about 8 years now. My last boyfriend really hurt me and made it impossible for me to trust again. How sickening and pathetic is that?
So, don't be like me. Feeling like I do is crappy. Get out of the house and meet folks. Shoot the breeze. Sit amongst the people and absorb their life and laughter. Or even just sit in a coffee shop in pure terror that someone will talk to you.
And yes, the SG community is here for you. Well, I can only speak for myself, but you get my point.
Goodnight. Big hug to you.
the rally car idea kicks serious ass! hmmm...
and the "poem" i wrote it years ago, when i was depressed about her and my life, and it felt very fitting again.
anyway, thanks again.