Depression, its a thing I feel people who don't suffer heavily from it have a hard time understanding. We all get it from time to time but for me it can be a constant struggle to deal with. My friend never seem to understand, always giving advice like just go out and do things it will go away. But they never seem to understand just how hard it can be just to get up, not even going out just getting up out of bed can feel like a huge task. And even then going out may not be the best solution for dealing with it that day. Sometimes going out can make you feel worse. A good example of this is when a friend invited me to a big party, Im an introvert and don't really like big parties but i took the advice of just go out and do things you'll feel better. I left that party easily feeling twice as bad as I felt when i got there. At the time i was depressed over my fiancee leaving me and having no real friends. The party put me in a place to see everyone else having what i wanted. I honestly don't understand how that friend thought this would be a good idea to get me out of my funk. Worst of all is when they are unset at me that their advice didn't work. I'm not them the things that make them happy may not be what makes me happy. Really what I need are better friends but I don't have the slightest clue where to find them. And dont let this post worry you to much I try and go the therapy regularly when I can afford it so I'm not fighting this alone. I just wish the few people who say they're my friends could understand how consuming depression can be.
